Storyteller Mar Qaroll - Blog | W5: April 2025

Saturday, April 19, 2025

2025

‘Lo, ev’ryone. I’ve been relatively silent these past four months since 2025 started…despite my hopes and intentions and whatnot. Everything leading up to this year was…decent. I had hopes for this year, if nothing else. Yet, four months in and…

I’m starting to wonder, for the umpteenth time in my life, why I bother. With anything.

With my hopes.

With my dreams.

With my intentions…

With what I think I can do.

Nothing happens in my life. Yes, I am one of those pathetic people who waits for something to happen to them because I am tired of trying and failing to make the change happen myself. I tried. I tried so hard. I can’t put all my energy into doing that again…

I can’t.

You don’t know how fucking hard I tried...


In the meantime. I’ve rebranded Candelabræm. Candelabræm Books is now a subsidiary of it, as well as a new subsidiary that will focus on art. As in artwork, crafts, craftsmanship, and all that jazz.

Speaking of which, I have…intended…to work on art again. For the first time in too many fucking years. Have I actually “artworked” in the past week? Hell fucking no.

So…that’s pretty much what I’ve been doing.

Nothing.

As usual.

So, fuck me, right?