Fortunately I had something ready to upload without having to make a new video. I do plan to do some more talking, as I've gone over some topics in my head that I'd like to make into videos. Not sure when that'll happen, though, as between this college related stress and my own anxiety, I'm going into a motivational vegetative state...
I kind of like this outfit...What do you think?
Yes. Messy room is messy. I assure you it doesn't look...erm...quite as bad right now...sort of...
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Apologies and thanks!
Sorry for lack of activity...Since getting my diploma, I've been very stressed, anxious and discombobulated. Trying to do all of this paperwork and research for what to do next...I'm not a happy bat. Not at all...
In other news, I have 20 followers!!! Never would have dreamed of getting this many! Thanks a million, you all! That makes this bat happy.
In other news, I have 20 followers!!! Never would have dreamed of getting this many! Thanks a million, you all! That makes this bat happy.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Second video
This doesn't mean I'll upload two videos next week!! /rant
This video is choppy for two reasons: I was extremely distracted and this "have discussions in front of a camera" thing is veeeeery new to me. :s
This video is choppy for two reasons: I was extremely distracted and this "have discussions in front of a camera" thing is veeeeery new to me. :s
HEYHEY What's this?!
AT LAST!
It finally came! Took long enough and my teacher told me long before it came anyways! But now I'm really looking forward to Monday. My clothes are washed, my iPod has all my music I want to listen to, now all I have to do is polish my boots an' I'm ready for whatever comes, baby! >D
The first thing on my list of ambitions is complete! Holy shat. And now...to be a college graduate!
I'm FREEEEEE— I wish...
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The first thing on my list of ambitions is complete! Holy shat. And now...to be a college graduate!
I'm FREEEEEE— I wish...
Movie review: Dumplings
Dumplings is a Chinese mind-and-stomach-bender directed by Fruit Chan. I watched it because it was lat— I mean, early in the morning and I wanted to watch something upon the lines of horror without actually causing me to see nasty, horrible things behind my eyelids when I finally went to sleep. Honestly...I liked it. I give it seven out of ten stars and three and a half out of five stars.
Firstly, I admit I have vorarephilia, so this was right up my alley. Yes, there will be spoilers for the movie.
The beginning is one of the parts that...could have been done better, but maybe the director was trying to give the movie a certain feel to it. It opens with you having no idea what is going on, but you're pulled right into the story. To make it all real short-like, the story is about an aging former-actress, who married a man I think around ten years older than her, eating an extremely expensive but very special dumpling recipe by a woman known as Aunt Mei. Aunt Mei says her recipe will make people younger and she is her best advertisement. How old is she? Never says how old in the beginning, but let's say around...oh, sixty-something...yet looks like a twenty year old. The secret ingredient to her dumplings? Human. Fetuses.
...I like that. I don't see what's so wrong about it. If people, and hell, we know they exist, don't want to have a baby, get an abortion and could give a flying figurine about what the hell happens to the fetus...well, someone could definitely consider that a free meal. If it keeps you alive, why not?
But let's not go there...it's off-topic anyway...
So aside from my own morbid curiosity as to wanting to know what dead ba— fetuses taste like, if it weren't for all of the cut-offs and cliffhangers as to why this, how's that, what the, and who the, I would say this is a ten-star, no-action, yes, there is sex, mind-fucking and should-have-seen-that-coming not-a-horror movie. It's more like disturbing sort that'll cause you to lose or broaden your appetite. At least I saw it in it's original language~
Now who wants Chinese dumplings~?
Next review: Breaking Dawn.
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Firstly, I admit I have vorarephilia, so this was right up my alley. Yes, there will be spoilers for the movie.
The beginning is one of the parts that...could have been done better, but maybe the director was trying to give the movie a certain feel to it. It opens with you having no idea what is going on, but you're pulled right into the story. To make it all real short-like, the story is about an aging former-actress, who married a man I think around ten years older than her, eating an extremely expensive but very special dumpling recipe by a woman known as Aunt Mei. Aunt Mei says her recipe will make people younger and she is her best advertisement. How old is she? Never says how old in the beginning, but let's say around...oh, sixty-something...yet looks like a twenty year old. The secret ingredient to her dumplings? Human. Fetuses.
...I like that. I don't see what's so wrong about it. If people, and hell, we know they exist, don't want to have a baby, get an abortion and could give a flying figurine about what the hell happens to the fetus...well, someone could definitely consider that a free meal. If it keeps you alive, why not?
But let's not go there...it's off-topic anyway...
So aside from my own morbid curiosity as to wanting to know what dead ba— fetuses taste like, if it weren't for all of the cut-offs and cliffhangers as to why this, how's that, what the, and who the, I would say this is a ten-star, no-action, yes, there is sex, mind-fucking and should-have-seen-that-coming not-a-horror movie. It's more like disturbing sort that'll cause you to lose or broaden your appetite. At least I saw it in it's original language~
Now who wants Chinese dumplings~?
Next review: Breaking Dawn.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Good news and a list of things to do
I swear I don't even get this much random attention on my birthday...Pizza and soda?? BUT I STILL HAD TO DO THE DISHES?!
Aw, it's okay.
My teacher called and told me I passed my GED. So I must pat myself on my back. I seriously thought I wouldn't have passed and would be going back to school on Monday to the same old thing. She also told me to be happy, so I hope to make another video very soon. That'll make me happy~ On Monday, I'll be looking into what Gateway courses I can take and hopefully check out this place called CT Works so I can prepare myself for job searching and whatnot. So that'll be something new to look forward to.
And now, like what SaryWalrus very oftentimes does, I shall make me a list of things I hope to do during this new month:
Aw, it's okay.
My teacher called and told me I passed my GED. So I must pat myself on my back. I seriously thought I wouldn't have passed and would be going back to school on Monday to the same old thing. She also told me to be happy, so I hope to make another video very soon. That'll make me happy~ On Monday, I'll be looking into what Gateway courses I can take and hopefully check out this place called CT Works so I can prepare myself for job searching and whatnot. So that'll be something new to look forward to.
And now, like what SaryWalrus very oftentimes does, I shall make me a list of things I hope to do during this new month:
1. Check out CT Works and get signed up
2. Upload a video at least once or twice a week
3. Discuss more on my interrogation in detail and
4. Talk about my love of symbols
5. Make a video about (my) fetishes and phobias
6. Take more visits to the library
7. Organize my online accounts!
And lastly...#8. Attempt to smile more often, even if it's a small one.
Seriously. I don't like smiling unless I'm actually happy. When it comes to posing for a picture it just...doesn't come to me. I like neutral expressions. I'm not saying I'm averse to smiling!! I just like smiling when it just COMES to me, not when I'm told to...However, I've recently (heck, not just recently, now that I think about it) been told that I look sad, like I'm frowning, mean, and on and on...
People, if I was sad, frowning or trying to look mean, YOU WOULD KNOW. Believe me...
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Real first video
Done with the new account and just in time before my mom kicks me off my own laptop, I finished my first video~! It's a small introduction, nothing much at all, none whatsoever, but it's just the beginning, I swear. I WILL be uploading more videos ASAP! Maybe even tomorrow...
So enjoy~! Helllooooo YouTube!
My Lenighma account will be for something else...Music videos and silly things, most likely...
So enjoy~! Helllooooo YouTube!
My Lenighma account will be for something else...Music videos and silly things, most likely...
Update
So I'm dead. That is, this blog is mostly dead. I know. So I've been wasting a lot of time all week or two, not even reading these wonderful books I borrowed from the library; shame on me. But I have been working on the next part of one of my fics and I have been thinking about more posts on this and my other (many) blogs.
I've finally made up my mind on this thing; I am making a new YouTube account. I'll have to re-upload the two videos I have up right now to that new account. Technically the account already exists but I just have to tweak some things. Now that I'm more comfortable and also spurred on by some awesome people I subscribed to yesterday, I will again attempt to put up more videos. I actually have a few ready...
With this decision also means my new Facebook account will have an actual purpose. I've already requested an invite to the Goth and More Blogging Community and if I'll allowed entry, will try to be around as much as possible. There really isn't an excuse anymore. I want to be more active, you see, in as many online alternative communities as possible. Since my laptop is currently being and will be hijacked by my mom for a while, I'm forced to use my Fatherboard desktop PC, Tron, which is an XP and not as fast as his younger counterpart, T2.L (my laptop). I hope to change that in the future...This means I won't be able to do as much, but I'll do what I can to prevent him from freezing and having any problems.
Also, do you think I should smile in my pictures? I don't really like smiling at all, as I prefer to have a neutral expression...but apparently it puts people off...
I've finally made up my mind on this thing; I am making a new YouTube account. I'll have to re-upload the two videos I have up right now to that new account. Technically the account already exists but I just have to tweak some things. Now that I'm more comfortable and also spurred on by some awesome people I subscribed to yesterday, I will again attempt to put up more videos. I actually have a few ready...
With this decision also means my new Facebook account will have an actual purpose. I've already requested an invite to the Goth and More Blogging Community and if I'll allowed entry, will try to be around as much as possible. There really isn't an excuse anymore. I want to be more active, you see, in as many online alternative communities as possible. Since my laptop is currently being and will be hijacked by my mom for a while, I'm forced to use my Fatherboard desktop PC, Tron, which is an XP and not as fast as his younger counterpart, T2.L (my laptop). I hope to change that in the future...This means I won't be able to do as much, but I'll do what I can to prevent him from freezing and having any problems.
Also, do you think I should smile in my pictures? I don't really like smiling at all, as I prefer to have a neutral expression...but apparently it puts people off...
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Movie review: Gypsy 83
I'm no professional, so sorry if this doesn't at all sound sane and coherent. Like the blog states, this is gonna be more of a, you guess it, rant.
Okay.
I wanted to like this movie. I've read many reviews on it from various bloggers who generally like it. Save one, but I can't remember who that was. But my overall take on it? Out of five stars? Two. Out of ten? Four. Harsh. What's the deal?
First off, maybe it's just my cynical, impatient self, but I was expecting so much more from this movie, and not because it dealt with goths. Sort of. Suuure, it was great that the main characters are good friends that can tease the shit out of one another (man, I wish I could talk to people the way Gypsy does), are legit goths and the younger, Clive, is just coming out of the closet and all that, but...seriously? If anything, I loved the soundtrack, which is no surprise. But WHY did there have to be so much typical shat in it like many other indie teen angst/grow-up movies? Sex, uncensored. Heavy language, though that didn't bother me so much. Predicable climaxes? Yes. And...I don't know. I was just thoroughly annoyed.
I don't even know how to coherently translate my thoughts of this movie. One scene that made me think the movie wasn't so bad at all was when Clive and Gypsy get to the goth club...and then...for the love of god, did Clive have to say what he said? And then he runs out crying like a little....*ahem* saying that he doesn't fit in anywhere....How the hell did you expect them to take you after doing something so stupid as that!?...Let's just say I've watched enough Lifetime movies to have seen that coming, and let me tell you, it was not a good thought. I didn't like Gypsy. I didn't like Clive, though I tried. I only liked his personality, but his decisions? No. I wanted to STRANGLE Gypsy.
And then the sex scenes. Okay...so...you both have one-night stands...and then...both of you get your hearts broken in the worst of ways right after, pretty much? Mm hm. That...could have been executed a little bit differently...instead of just...
To make long story short, since I'm so discombobulated I can't think straight, I did not enjoy or like this movie. It will not be watched again.
Next review: Dumplings.
Okay.
I wanted to like this movie. I've read many reviews on it from various bloggers who generally like it. Save one, but I can't remember who that was. But my overall take on it? Out of five stars? Two. Out of ten? Four. Harsh. What's the deal?
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First off, maybe it's just my cynical, impatient self, but I was expecting so much more from this movie, and not because it dealt with goths. Sort of. Suuure, it was great that the main characters are good friends that can tease the shit out of one another (man, I wish I could talk to people the way Gypsy does), are legit goths and the younger, Clive, is just coming out of the closet and all that, but...seriously? If anything, I loved the soundtrack, which is no surprise. But WHY did there have to be so much typical shat in it like many other indie teen angst/grow-up movies? Sex, uncensored. Heavy language, though that didn't bother me so much. Predicable climaxes? Yes. And...I don't know. I was just thoroughly annoyed.
I don't even know how to coherently translate my thoughts of this movie. One scene that made me think the movie wasn't so bad at all was when Clive and Gypsy get to the goth club...and then...for the love of god, did Clive have to say what he said? And then he runs out crying like a little....*ahem* saying that he doesn't fit in anywhere....How the hell did you expect them to take you after doing something so stupid as that!?...Let's just say I've watched enough Lifetime movies to have seen that coming, and let me tell you, it was not a good thought. I didn't like Gypsy. I didn't like Clive, though I tried. I only liked his personality, but his decisions? No. I wanted to STRANGLE Gypsy.
And then the sex scenes. Okay...so...you both have one-night stands...and then...both of you get your hearts broken in the worst of ways right after, pretty much? Mm hm. That...could have been executed a little bit differently...instead of just...
To make long story short, since I'm so discombobulated I can't think straight, I did not enjoy or like this movie. It will not be watched again.
Next review: Dumplings.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Ebay will be the death of me
I ordered a few things last week from Ebay. Today my first package came in the mail. It's a lovely black and silver coffin bag, nothing fancy, but my first ever~! I'd love to go all GIY on it and replace the strap with a chain or something, and since I have nothing to wear with it at the moment, will use it as a trinket box. It currently houses my jewelry. I LOOOVE it. I'm also thinking of selling my musical duck snow globe...the moment I can find a good fricking camera...or steal my brother's for a while...
I know, I know. I'm dead. I've also been sick since last week. So that means I'm behind on school work, since...uh...lazy kicks in overdrive when I'm sick, which doesn't help since I'm Sloth as it is. There's so much I've love to talk about...and plan to do...but right now, that's all talk. Sorry about that...I do plan to do a few movie reviews since I've watched a couple via my brother's Netflix account. Love that site. Finally saw Gypsy 83, so that will be the first I'll review. But should I do a video review or an entry? Or...both?
I know, I know. I'm dead. I've also been sick since last week. So that means I'm behind on school work, since...uh...lazy kicks in overdrive when I'm sick, which doesn't help since I'm Sloth as it is. There's so much I've love to talk about...and plan to do...but right now, that's all talk. Sorry about that...I do plan to do a few movie reviews since I've watched a couple via my brother's Netflix account. Love that site. Finally saw Gypsy 83, so that will be the first I'll review. But should I do a video review or an entry? Or...both?
Sunday, November 20, 2011
I've been interrogated!
Yesterday I took the second half of the GED test. I think I did pretty well, but...tomorrow it's back to school until I get the results. Hopefully I passed...
There's so much I've wanted to talk about. I have to start making notes, I know. I can't remember anything I meant to talk about during this past week except for what happened last evening...
I went to a meeting somewhat celebrating the 24th year the Muslim community has been here. It was okay. I moreso enjoyed being interrogated by some of the sisters slightly older than me (okay, not slightly, but I don't call them Aunty). I wore my new bat cross necklace to the meeting, so of course I was asked what was up with that. There was even an older sister who was listening to me talk and answer every question thrown at me; she never said anything but she was nodding and seemed interested and...pleased?...at my answers. It was a great experience. I'm glad my research and determination to be ME has paid off~! I feel like I can take on the world!
In other news, I do plan to do another video soon. It's annoying to remind myself by mentioning this AGAIN, but I'm still considering making another YouTube account instead of the one I used for my first video. I'm also thinking about making another Facebook account...or...not...?
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Countdown
In four days, I take the GED Test. This is what I've been working for months at. And this is what...for some reason, I can't get off my lazy, tired ass and do more studying for! But I'm not going to go at that right now. I don't want this to be a rant. I want to enjoy myself watching good oldschool Dragon Ball Z in the form of Dragon Ball Z Kai, being online from home again...and my last day before going back to school (I may just stay home and study all week)? Not looking forward to this week...
Yesseri, internet is back at my house. So this means I can do more updates to fanfiction, Project DV, and blog posts and stuff.
ARGH WHY DID BLEACH COPY OFF OF DBZ?! Long hair and the whole Dangai shat they pulled during Deicide...SERIOUSLY?!
*Ahem* I had a moment, there. The Cell Saga is really good. Damn. One hit. WHY is it ALWAYS Krillin?!
I just spent hours reviewing the blog posts I missed from...well, many weeks ago up until today. Man. Can you believe I have over 2000 deviations and, hell, let's not even talk about journal entries I have to look at on deviantART??? Sites. They can be blessings or curses, I tell ya. Thank god I'm not very active on social sites or I'd be in trouble...
Right. So countdown to the day I take my GED...
...and if I don't make it this time, well...threre's always three months from now...
Yesseri, internet is back at my house. So this means I can do more updates to fanfiction, Project DV, and blog posts and stuff.
ARGH WHY DID BLEACH COPY OFF OF DBZ?! Long hair and the whole Dangai shat they pulled during Deicide...SERIOUSLY?!
*Ahem* I had a moment, there. The Cell Saga is really good. Damn. One hit. WHY is it ALWAYS Krillin?!
I just spent hours reviewing the blog posts I missed from...well, many weeks ago up until today. Man. Can you believe I have over 2000 deviations and, hell, let's not even talk about journal entries I have to look at on deviantART??? Sites. They can be blessings or curses, I tell ya. Thank god I'm not very active on social sites or I'd be in trouble...
Right. So countdown to the day I take my GED...
...and if I don't make it this time, well...threre's always three months from now...
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
The Goth Challenge: Day 6
Technically it's day seven, but shh. I couldn't do this earlier...
Day 6: Hand write your favorite lyric and take a picture
Seeing as I have no camera, I'm going to take a Shitty Webcam Picture.
Can you read that? The lyrics are:
When I die
I'll die with my mercy
And when she cries
I'll cry with her
In my life,
See I've loved an angel
My mercy, eternal to me
There's more to it that I couldn't get in one pic...
We are love,
We are made of many
We are two,
We are made of few
The song is by Coal Chamber called My Mercy. It's...it's phenomenal. Definitely a song to sing between lovers. That's all I see when I hear it...and it's just beautiful to sing. Hear it.
Info on the challenge here.
Day 6: Hand write your favorite lyric and take a picture
Seeing as I have no camera, I'm going to take a Shitty Webcam Picture.
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Can you read that? The lyrics are:
When I die
I'll die with my mercy
And when she cries
I'll cry with her
In my life,
See I've loved an angel
My mercy, eternal to me
There's more to it that I couldn't get in one pic...
We are love,
We are made of many
We are two,
We are made of few
The song is by Coal Chamber called My Mercy. It's...it's phenomenal. Definitely a song to sing between lovers. That's all I see when I hear it...and it's just beautiful to sing. Hear it.
Info on the challenge here.
Monday, October 17, 2011
Smart
I'm at school. It's the thirty minute break and I managed to find a site that allows me to play music: Last.fm! I love Last.fm. I discovered so many amazing bands thanks to it. So. What am I going to do during this time?
Because I've learned today that I'm not actually as far behind in my school work as I thought, I can devote some more time to what I should have been doing last week, but was too sick and lazy to do on my own. I can gather some of my written work to show to the literary club on Wednesday as well as pay more attention to some other work I doubt I can show (due to *ahem* content) but have been obsessing over all weekend. And have I mentioned Project DV before...?
I made a new Facebook group for it, and yeah, I see now that I probably shouldn't have gotten rid of the old group I had for it. But the fact that I can create documents might come in handy. I just hope I can still create discussion "forums". I really liked that...
I don't remember what I did over the weekend, but my desire to do more and somehow participate in the alternative communities sparked within me. I couldn't this past week, but I'm dead serious when I say I plan to do some videos. I've found some amazing users on YouTube that are very inspiring and fun to watch. I always look forward to seeing a new video from them. Overall, the alternative blog and video community seems to be doing pretty darn well.
Can't wait to join it~
Oh, also, I would be home or on my way home by now, but I'm staying a bit later because my teacher gave me an application for a job at Christmas Tree Shops. I'd love to work there. And since I'm new at this, she has offered to give me a fake interview and go over the application process with me~ Gotta do all I can to become independent!
Because I've learned today that I'm not actually as far behind in my school work as I thought, I can devote some more time to what I should have been doing last week, but was too sick and lazy to do on my own. I can gather some of my written work to show to the literary club on Wednesday as well as pay more attention to some other work I doubt I can show (due to *ahem* content) but have been obsessing over all weekend. And have I mentioned Project DV before...?
I made a new Facebook group for it, and yeah, I see now that I probably shouldn't have gotten rid of the old group I had for it. But the fact that I can create documents might come in handy. I just hope I can still create discussion "forums". I really liked that...
I don't remember what I did over the weekend, but my desire to do more and somehow participate in the alternative communities sparked within me. I couldn't this past week, but I'm dead serious when I say I plan to do some videos. I've found some amazing users on YouTube that are very inspiring and fun to watch. I always look forward to seeing a new video from them. Overall, the alternative blog and video community seems to be doing pretty darn well.
Can't wait to join it~
Oh, also, I would be home or on my way home by now, but I'm staying a bit later because my teacher gave me an application for a job at Christmas Tree Shops. I'd love to work there. And since I'm new at this, she has offered to give me a fake interview and go over the application process with me~ Gotta do all I can to become independent!
Friday, October 14, 2011
Drastic measures
Sort of.
Guess what? I cut my hair (well, technically my mom gave me a buzz cut). All of it. It's allll gone. :D Why am I happy? Long story. Not in the mood to explain it. Now I really want to start getting some fake piercings. So the next time I get some money, I'm going to have to put half of it aside and put the rest into a savings bank or something. A stash somewhere...Has anyone bought fake piercings? I'm thinking of buying from Body Jewellery Shop from the UK or Body Jewelry Factory...from...uh...the US? Anyone bought from either or recommend a place?
Or...trial and error works, too, I guess...Ouch...
I'm somewhat in a good mood, even though I've been sick all week and couldn't go to school. I don't know what this is. Allergies? Or just a common cold? I even missed therapy...
Also I'm still trying to figure out how to merge or separate all of my accounts and whatnot. Of course, having permanent internet access would help, so I'm going to have to wait before I can really work on it. I have no idea when I'll be doing another video...and...might upload it somewhere else. Not sure. Maybe. Maybe not...*sigh*
Guess what? I cut my hair (well, technically my mom gave me a buzz cut). All of it. It's allll gone. :D Why am I happy? Long story. Not in the mood to explain it. Now I really want to start getting some fake piercings. So the next time I get some money, I'm going to have to put half of it aside and put the rest into a savings bank or something. A stash somewhere...Has anyone bought fake piercings? I'm thinking of buying from Body Jewellery Shop from the UK or Body Jewelry Factory...from...uh...the US? Anyone bought from either or recommend a place?
Or...trial and error works, too, I guess...Ouch...
I'm somewhat in a good mood, even though I've been sick all week and couldn't go to school. I don't know what this is. Allergies? Or just a common cold? I even missed therapy...
Also I'm still trying to figure out how to merge or separate all of my accounts and whatnot. Of course, having permanent internet access would help, so I'm going to have to wait before I can really work on it. I have no idea when I'll be doing another video...and...might upload it somewhere else. Not sure. Maybe. Maybe not...*sigh*
World of Goo
Another interesting looking indie video game is called World of Goo. It's a physics-based puzzle game. I like it because it deals with...goo. Black goo, at that. It doesn't seem to have much of a story at first glance, but it does. Info taken from Wikipedia. :p
The game is built around the idea of creating large structures using balls of goo. The game is divided into five chapters, each containing several levels. Each level has its own graphic and musical theme, giving it unique atmosphere, similar in style to Tim Burton's film designs (AHA!). There is also a bonus meta-game called World of Goo Corporation, where the objective is to build the highest tower using goo balls which the player collected through the course of the game.
The main objective of the game is to get a requisite number of goo balls to a pipe representing the exit. In order to do so, the player must use the goo balls to construct bridges, towers, and other structures to overcome gravity and various terrain difficulties such as chasms, hills, spikes, or cliffs. There are several types of goo balls in the game, each of which has unique properties. The player must exploit combinations of these goo balls in order to complete each level. Extra goos recovered in the pipe are pumped through to the World of Goo Corporation, a sandbox area where the objective is to compete with other players worldwide by building the tallest tower possible.
The story doesn't really matter to me, as this looks more like a game one would play for pure enjoyment and challenge. It has a somewhat nerving/startling environment at times, at least I think so, because you'll find yourself doing things like creating a "bridge" tongue from the mouth of a...giant...huge-eyed....vomiting-black-goo...frog and creating structures in an enclosed environment that has a spinning background. Dizzying. At times, the music really does remind me of something from Danny Elfman, which is a definite plus in my book.
Anyways, look up some videos and decide for yourself. As for me...I need some money!
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The game is built around the idea of creating large structures using balls of goo. The game is divided into five chapters, each containing several levels. Each level has its own graphic and musical theme, giving it unique atmosphere, similar in style to Tim Burton's film designs (AHA!). There is also a bonus meta-game called World of Goo Corporation, where the objective is to build the highest tower using goo balls which the player collected through the course of the game.
The main objective of the game is to get a requisite number of goo balls to a pipe representing the exit. In order to do so, the player must use the goo balls to construct bridges, towers, and other structures to overcome gravity and various terrain difficulties such as chasms, hills, spikes, or cliffs. There are several types of goo balls in the game, each of which has unique properties. The player must exploit combinations of these goo balls in order to complete each level. Extra goos recovered in the pipe are pumped through to the World of Goo Corporation, a sandbox area where the objective is to compete with other players worldwide by building the tallest tower possible.
The story doesn't really matter to me, as this looks more like a game one would play for pure enjoyment and challenge. It has a somewhat nerving/startling environment at times, at least I think so, because you'll find yourself doing things like creating a "bridge" tongue from the mouth of a...giant...huge-eyed....vomiting-black-goo...frog and creating structures in an enclosed environment that has a spinning background. Dizzying. At times, the music really does remind me of something from Danny Elfman, which is a definite plus in my book.
Anyways, look up some videos and decide for yourself. As for me...I need some money!
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Body modifications pt. 2
So. As I think I said recently, I have always a huge interest in body mods. Be it that I only have one simple earring in each ear and the closest to tattoos I ever had was using body gel pens on my arms when I was younger, I have none. Thing is, it isn't at all uncommon nowadays to find people, primarily youngsters, in my city and probably all over the USA with lip, eyebrow, and gauge piercings. That's great. It means it's becoming more acceptable to have them even if you aren't part of a subculture. Thing is, that also means getting a body mod now for me would mean it's almost like doing what everyone else is doing, even though I've always wanted them. Sure, my mom and brother know otherwise, but no one else would. My mother has told me, however, that doing so would seem so. And that's what really ticks me off.
Hey, it isn't my fault my mom would never let me have anything more than two earrings until now. Yeah, yeah, I'm nineteen. I'm getting them anyway, even though my mom said not to until after she dies. Yeeaaaah, like that's going to happen.
Annoying whining is over. Yes.
In other news, I've finally put a picture of myself up on my Blogger profile. It's from a failed video trial I did. It looks like a good quality picture because I made it smaller. I'm not hiding my mouth on purpose. There's nothing to hide.
Hey, it isn't my fault my mom would never let me have anything more than two earrings until now. Yeah, yeah, I'm nineteen. I'm getting them anyway, even though my mom said not to until after she dies. Yeeaaaah, like that's going to happen.
Annoying whining is over. Yes.
In other news, I've finally put a picture of myself up on my Blogger profile. It's from a failed video trial I did. It looks like a good quality picture because I made it smaller. I'm not hiding my mouth on purpose. There's nothing to hide.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
The 31 Days of....
...something that was supposed to be special.
SERIOUSLY? The SyFy channel and Disney Channel are driving me nuts. No. I do not watch the fucking Disney Channel. But I saw a commercial for an episode of some show, I don't know, and what ticked me off about it was that one of the characters, male, dressed up as a GOTH for Halloween. Worst part was that he looked pretty good...and the announcer is going "Did he go too far???" and his parents are freaking out asking "Are you sure about this???" He seemed pretty serious. Yeah. Nice, Disney Channel. I have nothing to say....
In other news, I never mentioned I turned 19 on Sept. 28. Been trying to focus on my education more than I already have, but...things are just...weird, now. I don't know. My body isn't cooperating as much as it used to. I'm tired and worn out, overwhelmed...I don't know if it's my medication or what...or if it just because I burn more calories than I consume. I walk a lot, don't eat much...and I carry this ridiculously heavy bag every day...I don't know. I wouldn't know.
So. I have four days to do nothing or something. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. My mom and I will probably go out on Friday if I don't come back from therapy too late and...most likely not spend any money whatsoever because I am broke. Won't that be fun. And unless I get a new bus pass, well, I won't be going anywhere all weekend.
This should be fun.
Right, I remember what I was going to say, now. I have two new videos, but my mom said they're way too long. Uh, yeah...they were over nine minutes long...so I'll make a new one over the weekend just to introduce myself to the internet world. I'm also going to reupload my first outfit post on another account. I didn't want to at first, but...well, I'm not sure, honestly. My Lenighma account was just for music videos I hoped to make in the future, but...I'll see how it goes.
Must I remind you this is a rant blog?
SERIOUSLY? The SyFy channel and Disney Channel are driving me nuts. No. I do not watch the fucking Disney Channel. But I saw a commercial for an episode of some show, I don't know, and what ticked me off about it was that one of the characters, male, dressed up as a GOTH for Halloween. Worst part was that he looked pretty good...and the announcer is going "Did he go too far???" and his parents are freaking out asking "Are you sure about this???" He seemed pretty serious. Yeah. Nice, Disney Channel. I have nothing to say....
In other news, I never mentioned I turned 19 on Sept. 28. Been trying to focus on my education more than I already have, but...things are just...weird, now. I don't know. My body isn't cooperating as much as it used to. I'm tired and worn out, overwhelmed...I don't know if it's my medication or what...or if it just because I burn more calories than I consume. I walk a lot, don't eat much...and I carry this ridiculously heavy bag every day...I don't know. I wouldn't know.
So. I have four days to do nothing or something. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. My mom and I will probably go out on Friday if I don't come back from therapy too late and...most likely not spend any money whatsoever because I am broke. Won't that be fun. And unless I get a new bus pass, well, I won't be going anywhere all weekend.
This should be fun.
Right, I remember what I was going to say, now. I have two new videos, but my mom said they're way too long. Uh, yeah...they were over nine minutes long...so I'll make a new one over the weekend just to introduce myself to the internet world. I'm also going to reupload my first outfit post on another account. I didn't want to at first, but...well, I'm not sure, honestly. My Lenighma account was just for music videos I hoped to make in the future, but...I'll see how it goes.
Must I remind you this is a rant blog?
Monday, October 3, 2011
Lonely
I don't know. I probably need to go to places on my own more. Maybe I need to just overcome my shyness and try to get another pen pal or something. Whatever the case, I'm lonely. It's true, I can be horribly shy. Always have been. God almighty, my mom can tell you stories. I'm getting better but not nearly as much as I'd like. Talking to complete strangers on the street also just...unnerves me somehow. I don't know this person. Why should I talk to them?? Why would they want to talk to me?? I just don't like strangers. Yes. I don't think most people like strangers. What the fuckery, right?
But, you see, I've been sheltered my whole life. There's so much that's new to me, amiss the fact that I'm nineteen. Up until I became seventeen, I couldn't even walk out of the house on my own. And the times I was given permission to do so, I was...afraid. So don't even go there.
I know this is a problem I have to get over myself, most likely. Complaining about it won't change anything. I know...
I only have two friends, one who I can't really communicate with and the other who I can't see as much as I'd like...
I know...
Just needed to vent a little bit.
But, you see, I've been sheltered my whole life. There's so much that's new to me, amiss the fact that I'm nineteen. Up until I became seventeen, I couldn't even walk out of the house on my own. And the times I was given permission to do so, I was...afraid. So don't even go there.
I know this is a problem I have to get over myself, most likely. Complaining about it won't change anything. I know...
I only have two friends, one who I can't really communicate with and the other who I can't see as much as I'd like...
I know...
Just needed to vent a little bit.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Body modifications
I've been thinking for a long time about body mods. I've always loved them, but never did any research about them until recently. Boy, have I been surprised. As many problems that can occur from them, I'm somewhat unsure whether I should get them or not. Not to mention...the cost. Literally. So here are the body mods I would love to have (no pictures, I don't have time for that right now):
- Eyebrow piercings (two)
- Bridge piercing (...?)
- Nose piercings (one on each nostril)
- Tongue piercing (though I'm still thinking about it)
- Lip piercings (snakebites)
- Ear piercings (multiple on each ear, including plugs)
- Third eye dermal (one...or three...?)
- Tongue tattoo (...?)
- Septum piercing
- Ear pointing
I'm sure about everything except the tongue piercing, tongue tattoo...and bridge piercing. My mother doesn't think I should "ruin my beautiful face", and she doesn't know I want to point my ears or tattoo my tongue but she'll probably not like it, but she has allowed me to get one nose ring, one eyebrow ring, and I think one lip ring. For now. I shall not complain. It's the cost that annoys me. At least $50 for a piercing? Seriously?
Of course, I plan to get fake piercings for all places I hope to get real ones at before I do anything. This way I could get a job before doing anything that could be disastrous. I hope to be a chef, novelist and own my own company in the future, but what about the jobs before that? Probably a waitress and working in a music store. I like those ideas. I don't want a job that is corporate or anything. But what about the other costs that might come up? What if I get an infection? A serious one? It'd be horrible...but considering how common piercings are now, it can't be that bad...right...?
Oh, well. Time to look at the prices of fake piercings...
Soooo....
Ugh, ugh, ugh. I'm sweating like a wet bridge, here. It's extremely humid out, today, probably 100%, and...well, all the clothes I have are made of heavy material. No summer clothes. And I have to wear layers. I'm not even going to explain how uncomfortable I am right now.
At the library again. School is out, so I thought I'd entertain myself since I couldn't yesterday even though it was my birthday. No milkshake for me...*Le sigh*
I think I saw a fellow deviant on Tuesday. She wore very nice makeup and her boots were amazing...though I sure don't remember what she was wearing. I only see her face and boots in my head.
By the way, I had a very nice shopping haul on Saturday. The Salvation Army close to my home has some great stuff. I only spent around $9 and got a shirt and pants! Oh, the shirt is fantastic. Interestingly, it's by Charlotte Russe. I can't wait to wear it with something...
And about my Eid wishlist...well, obviously thanks to that stupid person who used my bank account that didn't happen. Oh, I was so hoping to buy some nice armwarmers from Zen And Coffee...But the ones I found from Claire's are okay for now.
There's not much to talk about, but, hey, an update won't kill anyone. Kind of excited about my first video, even though it'll be hard to find more outfits from the limited things in my wardrobe. Well, not limited...
I'm ranting.
I am bored.
So I shall listen to music. My small CD collection is beginning to grow...somewhat....I now have four CDs...
At the library again. School is out, so I thought I'd entertain myself since I couldn't yesterday even though it was my birthday. No milkshake for me...*Le sigh*
I think I saw a fellow deviant on Tuesday. She wore very nice makeup and her boots were amazing...though I sure don't remember what she was wearing. I only see her face and boots in my head.
By the way, I had a very nice shopping haul on Saturday. The Salvation Army close to my home has some great stuff. I only spent around $9 and got a shirt and pants! Oh, the shirt is fantastic. Interestingly, it's by Charlotte Russe. I can't wait to wear it with something...
And about my Eid wishlist...well, obviously thanks to that stupid person who used my bank account that didn't happen. Oh, I was so hoping to buy some nice armwarmers from Zen And Coffee...But the ones I found from Claire's are okay for now.
There's not much to talk about, but, hey, an update won't kill anyone. Kind of excited about my first video, even though it'll be hard to find more outfits from the limited things in my wardrobe. Well, not limited...
I'm ranting.
I am bored.
So I shall listen to music. My small CD collection is beginning to grow...somewhat....I now have four CDs...
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Small update
Soooo. I've been dead again. Same reasons as before. Internet access is extremely limited right now and since we've moved, I just don't like to walk in this neighborhood. Not at all. I don't care how close the library is to me now. I got online on Saturday, but only for a few hours.
I know I'm behind on the Goth Challenge posts. I just don't have time to upload them right now...In fact, a lot of posts I had planned had to be saved as drafts. Such a mess...
At my "school" (it's an adult education career campus, really), I was one of the student guides for...tourists, of a sort. Nothing extremely special, though one of my fellow students did really well, wow. He deserved a pat on the back.
At my "school" (it's an adult education career campus, really), I was one of the student guides for...tourists, of a sort. Nothing extremely special, though one of my fellow students did really well, wow. He deserved a pat on the back.
Friday, September 2, 2011
The Goth Challenge: Day 27
Day Twenty-Seven: The worst thing you ever did to a newbie.
I am the newbie and the worst thing I ever did to myself was not start expressing who I am sooner! It might seem somewhat trivial but you have no idea how horrible this is to me! I feel like I should've done what I'm doing now years ago. It almost hurts that I'm starting "so late" now, at all times. I just don't understand why I didn't listen to my inner deviant screaming from within in 2008. I tried to start with prose instead of materialistic things, but that was just a waste of time. And now I'm just so unhappy...and it's just a bad time to be starting. At least I think so...because I'm a Muslim...not to mention money is so tight now...and my mental issues...
In other news, I'm at the library again and I still wish I had a camera. Picking up my laptop around to take pictures of things just doesn't feel safe for dear T2.L (my laptop). He's fragile and so young!!! D: NOT TO MENTION HUGE. His screen is 17'' for crying out loud!
Anyone else make lists of all of the online sites they want to buy from? I find myself browsing those sites for hours...and of course all of my favorites and adding favorites on Etsy~ Etsy...is heaven. An expensive heaven. And I'm surprised I have so many stores from all around the world...Europe, UK, Asia, Australia, New Zealand...Makes me happy.
I am the newbie and the worst thing I ever did to myself was not start expressing who I am sooner! It might seem somewhat trivial but you have no idea how horrible this is to me! I feel like I should've done what I'm doing now years ago. It almost hurts that I'm starting "so late" now, at all times. I just don't understand why I didn't listen to my inner deviant screaming from within in 2008. I tried to start with prose instead of materialistic things, but that was just a waste of time. And now I'm just so unhappy...and it's just a bad time to be starting. At least I think so...because I'm a Muslim...not to mention money is so tight now...and my mental issues...
In other news, I'm at the library again and I still wish I had a camera. Picking up my laptop around to take pictures of things just doesn't feel safe for dear T2.L (my laptop). He's fragile and so young!!! D: NOT TO MENTION HUGE. His screen is 17'' for crying out loud!
Anyone else make lists of all of the online sites they want to buy from? I find myself browsing those sites for hours...and of course all of my favorites and adding favorites on Etsy~ Etsy...is heaven. An expensive heaven. And I'm surprised I have so many stores from all around the world...Europe, UK, Asia, Australia, New Zealand...Makes me happy.
The Goth Challenge: Day 28 (late)
Day Twenty-Eight: Do you consider yourself an eldergoth?
AHAHAHA! No. I'm a babybat. Not at heart, but still a babybat. And I'm not afraid to admit it. I would no longer consider myself a babybat once I find myself completely comfortable with expressing who I am and active in the community. That'll probably take a few more years...*sigh* but it'd take a long while for me to consider myself an eldergoth. I'd have to be in my forties or fifties, maybe. That's a long way off...so let's not think about that...
I hope to do some videos soon. Taking inspiration from Sebastian, I'm just going to talk about...things that are on my mind and my beginnings as a babybat and whatnot. I think it'd be more interesting to talk about them on a video than talk about them in a blog. Maybe use videos to compliment the entries...I like that idea...
AHAHAHA! No. I'm a babybat. Not at heart, but still a babybat. And I'm not afraid to admit it. I would no longer consider myself a babybat once I find myself completely comfortable with expressing who I am and active in the community. That'll probably take a few more years...*sigh* but it'd take a long while for me to consider myself an eldergoth. I'd have to be in my forties or fifties, maybe. That's a long way off...so let's not think about that...
I hope to do some videos soon. Taking inspiration from Sebastian, I'm just going to talk about...things that are on my mind and my beginnings as a babybat and whatnot. I think it'd be more interesting to talk about them on a video than talk about them in a blog. Maybe use videos to compliment the entries...I like that idea...
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Mall haul (late)
God wasn’t mad at me, today~! My brother took me to the mall~! Sort of. Bah, fact of the matter is I went~! LUGGING AROUND A 17-INCH LAPTOP. But I did it~! Went to three places: GameStop, Claire’s and Hot Topic. OH, Claire’s is niiice! It’s an accessory shop, pretty much, as well as cosmetics here and there. Really nice! I’d love to go there again. Maybe buy some cheap cosmetics just to begin testing makeup (meaning using me as a guinea pig). Best thing is that all three stores are real close to one another and near the exit. There’s also an H&M and a Forever 21 in the mall, but we didn’t have time to go there. I’m going to have to take a Shitty Webcam Pic of the things I bought later.
From Claire's I bought buckled armwarmers and from Hot Topic I bought some much-needed suspenders and...THE NEW DIR EN GREY CD, Dum Spiro Spero~!! I haven't even listened to it yet! But like my Deathstars CD, Night Electric Night, and The Nightmare Before Christmas soundtrack, I'm going to rip the songs into MP3s and then store the CD away until I can find a proper place to put my CDs! That'll also keep the CDs in pristine condition~ This makes my total of music CDs...three. *Falls to knees* Such a long way to go...
The Hot Topic near me...has totally sold-out. OH, it's pathetic. It's nowhere near as decent as it used to be. Once upon a time, there were two wonderful sized racks of music from my chest to the floor filled with alternative music, but now...only two puny "walls", if they can even be called that, that aren't even used right to take advantage of the space they have and WHY THE HELL IS JUSTIN BIEBER THERE?! You can find his music anywhere! The albums that I found there the very first time I went couldn't be found anywhere offline within a music store, or at least the ones I went into! Why do they have such a small selection of music now, and not even good music at that!? I probably won't even see Dum Spiro Spero again after a few weeks!
Oh, bah. There's nothing that interests me in this Hot Topic anymore. I miss the Tripp NYC stuff. Where're the cool armwarmers they had?? What happened to the hats?? They carried some decent stuff in there once upon a time! They haven't even started putting any Halloween stuff up, yet...There's something seriously wrong with that! Even Claire's had Halloween stuff in it! They're late, man. Seriously late for an "alternative" store. They sold-out. End of discussion. And this lil' deviant is pissed. I knew I should've bought from them sooner...
My brother bought four PS2 games from GameStop~ We have two fifth generation video game consoles (Playstation One and Nintendo 64) and two sixth generation video game consoles (PlayStation 2 and GameCube) and we still have a lot of games to buy for all four systems. My brother was very nice and also bought a new GameStop PS2 controller since he bought Soul Calibur 3. The other three games are Tomb Raider: Legend (MY NEW FAVE~), Hitman: Blood Money and Hulk: Ultimate Destruction for him. You won't catch me dead playing Hulk: Ultimate Destruction. It's soooo boring to me. I somewhat enjoy watching my brother play it, though. I'm totally loving Tomb Raider. It's like The Legend of Zelda with guns, a female lead and an Indiana Jones sort of setting.
So, I guess this was a nice late Eid shopping day. I'm happy. :)
The Goth Challenge: Day 26 (late)
(Forgot to post this.)
Day twenty-six of the GC is Show a photo for every year (or month if you're new) that you've being into Goth, but be it that I have no camera and have never had one...I have nothing to show you all today! As for talking about something relating to the topic, I don't know what to do there, either.
So...thus day is null and void. OTL
Day twenty-six of the GC is Show a photo for every year (or month if you're new) that you've being into Goth, but be it that I have no camera and have never had one...I have nothing to show you all today! As for talking about something relating to the topic, I don't know what to do there, either.
So...thus day is null and void. OTL
Holy book thumpers pt. 2
Same woman from that previous post and my thoughts about what I classify as "holy book thumpers".
Searched her blog for anything with the word "goth" in it and, well, lookie what other post I came upon....
So this one is from a woman who asked about multiple piercings, which is something I am going to get into, regardless. Fucking stupid...First of all, it opens with a sentence that pisses me off:
"[The sisters are] now thinking beyond their surrounding environment and taking the most important step that is questioning the different behaviors people are blindly taking."
"Blindly taking", what the...?!
Okay, fine. Not getting a tattoo or getting your teeth permanently changed (into fangs, say) is something I can deal with as a Muslim; there are plenty of alternatives like Scarecrow fangs and henna tattoos. But THIS:
"...most Muslims have fallen, due to many factors, such as: media, peers…etc in the obsession of attraction and fashion, these delusions were illusions wrapped into “I just want to look different” and “feel special about myself”. All that deluded them away from the main identity as Muslims, i.e. being liberated from worshiping anything, or anyone other than Allah Almighty, that’s what makes you special and important."
"Have fallen"? She seriously uses this language?! And what the hell is wrong with individuality, expressionism and looking different? Illusions and delusions!
"Is this the custom or tradition of a deviated group? If so, then remember the prophet peace be upon him had said: “Whoever imitates a people, he is one of them”, a hadith narrated by many of the prophets companions: Abdallah Ibn Omar ibn Alkhattab who used to be so carful on imitating the prophet peace be upon him, even in the way he tied his animal. Hudhayfa, the companion who the prophet peace be upon him had told him the names of all the hypocrites in Madina. The companion that Omar Ibn Alkhattab used to follow from one place to another, just to tell him if he were from them or not."
Then she goes on to cite quotes from Hadiths and whatnot that pretty much sums up that it's fine to "heavily load" your ears and get your nose pierced if you're a woman. BUT:
"As for the tongue, stomach, eyebrow and other body parts piercing. It is definitely the behavior of deviated groups, not to mention the medical side effects, therefore harram. Imitating deviated groups is not just in the piercing, but in any behavior. I ask Allah to protect us from any deviation, and deviations that have been made to seem as norms and “cosmetics”. Unfortunately many Muslims are now imitating gothics in the way they dress, not knowing that imitating a group means you are part of them, as the prophet peace be upon him said."
Medical side effects? Has this woman never seen a person with such piercings before? Last I checked, a good lot of them are perfectly healthy in terms of "medical side effects" from the piercing. I want to smack someone. Where is my whip?
Sure, there are alternatives to piercings. There are fake piercings that I hope to get, but that's to see how the piercing would look on me before getting permanent ones. That's it. This is the shit I'm going to have to go through. But, boy, am I hope to be one happy mofo one day.
I will be.
I will be.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Eid ul-Fitr 2011 online wishlist (so far)
Let me begin by saying amiss the $100 that were given to me for Eid, I have no money right now. SOMEONE has been using my bank account and using it to by weird things! I only know of one reason how this could have happened...I only used my card recently to do something for a family member...and, oh, I hope she didn't...
But, nonetheless, this is the last day of Eid ul-Fitr (if you celebrate it for three days) and I'm still hoping my money problem will be figured out soon so I can buy some new shat. I haven't a clue how much clothes will cost, but aside from clothes, I'd love to buy some things to begin a gothic room environment for me as well as non-apparel stuffs.
Black Lipstick from the Portland Black Lipstick Company
ODDITORIA Lip Balm from The Morbid The Merrier
Black Jack body lotion from The Morbid The Merrier
Pocket Watch Necklace - Gunmetal Black from Robin Hood Couture
But, nonetheless, this is the last day of Eid ul-Fitr (if you celebrate it for three days) and I'm still hoping my money problem will be figured out soon so I can buy some new shat. I haven't a clue how much clothes will cost, but aside from clothes, I'd love to buy some things to begin a gothic room environment for me as well as non-apparel stuffs.
Black Lipstick from the Portland Black Lipstick Company
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| Image from Google, sort of |
ODDITORIA Lip Balm from The Morbid The Merrier
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| Image from Etsy |
Black Jack body lotion from The Morbid The Merrier
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| Image from Etsy |
Pocket Watch Necklace - Gunmetal Black from Robin Hood Couture
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| Image from Etsy |
Plastic 12 Hole Sweet Potato Alto C Purple from Songbird Ocarina
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| Image from Songbird Ocarina | will be my starting ocarina! |
Some apparel...
Gothic Unisex Dark Side Bondage Arm Warmers - Black w/ Silver Metal D Rings from Zen And Coffee Designs
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| Image from Etsy |
Restrained Gothic Lolita Corset Laced Up Arm Warmers w/ Ribbon from Zen And Coffee Designs
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| Image from Etsy |
And what I'm most looking forward to aside from clothes...Since furniture is much too expensive right now and totally out of the question (I'll probably have to wait until I get my own place), after painting my walls white, I'm going to spice up my room with....WALL DECALS!! I can't get enough of them!
Vinyl Wall Chalkboard Decal Sticker Art - Vintage Hanging Sign from Wordy Birds Studio
Vinyl Wall Chalkboard Decal Sticker Art - Vintage Hanging Sign from Wordy Birds Studio
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| Image from Etsy |
Vinyl Wall Decal Sticker Art - Ye Olde Salem Broom Co Sign - Halloween Decoration from Wordy Birds Studio
Vinyl Wall Decal Sticker Art - Trick or Treat - Halloween Decorations from Wordy Birds Studios
Vinyl Wall Decal Sticker Art - Keep Out - Halloween Decoration from Wordy Birds Studios
Gothic Ironwork Window - Wall Decal from Many Strange Things
Bat Attack/Vinyl Wall Art from Pillbox Designs
In the future, my home will have a million wall decals, I swear! AUGH!!!
*Ahem* I can dream. I'm not going to add up all the prices, including the shipping prices, but...I'll bet it's way more than I can afford to spend on non-apparel (sans the armwarmers) when I (had and would have had) $200. Then $50 would have gone towards shoes...*sigh*
Damn you, whoever you are using my card!!!
Well, I have to go, now. Hopefully I'll come back online tomorrow...
Also, random, but LOOK AT THIS LAPTOP DEAL! Sucks today is the last day....!!!
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| Image from Etsy | planning on it saying "Project DV" |
Vinyl Wall Decal Sticker Art - Trick or Treat - Halloween Decorations from Wordy Birds Studios
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| Image from Etsy | planning on it saying "Maryam's Room" |
Vinyl Wall Decal Sticker Art - Keep Out - Halloween Decoration from Wordy Birds Studios
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| Image from Etsy | planning on it being on my door on the outside... |
Gothic Ironwork Window - Wall Decal from Many Strange Things
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| Image from Etsy | planning on getting two |
Bat Attack/Vinyl Wall Art from Pillbox Designs
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| Image from Etsy | planning on getting two |
In the future, my home will have a million wall decals, I swear! AUGH!!!
*Ahem* I can dream. I'm not going to add up all the prices, including the shipping prices, but...I'll bet it's way more than I can afford to spend on non-apparel (sans the armwarmers) when I (had and would have had) $200. Then $50 would have gone towards shoes...*sigh*
Damn you, whoever you are using my card!!!
Well, I have to go, now. Hopefully I'll come back online tomorrow...
Also, random, but LOOK AT THIS LAPTOP DEAL! Sucks today is the last day....!!!
The Goth Challenge: Day 25
Day Twenty-Five: Did you ever consider leaving the subculture?
Hells freaking NO! This is who I am, you know. I'm not changing me for anyone. And I consider myself not just part of the goth subculture. I wouldn't want to "leave" any of them. If anything, I would like to be a more prominent figure in the subcultures I like. I doubt I could ever be a model (but you never knoooow~) but I'm thinking something more along the likes of owner of an alternative-catering company (*COUGH*ProjectDV*COUGH) and simply someone who can be found at a lot of alternative events.
And...do you guys think I should add random pictures to my entries? I see a lot of blogs do that, though I never understood it...Why post the picture when it doesn't belong to you or has nothing to do with the entry? Well, sometimes I think it works. Like when posting a picture of, say, piercings you want to have...*ahem*
Also, I won't be able to post much else aside from the rest of these days of the Goth Challenge for a while. After that, I'll probably just post...whatever. I'll be operating from the library and I have a lot of catching up elsewhere online. I have no idea how long this no-internet thing is going to go for at home, but...it's not looking good.
Hells freaking NO! This is who I am, you know. I'm not changing me for anyone. And I consider myself not just part of the goth subculture. I wouldn't want to "leave" any of them. If anything, I would like to be a more prominent figure in the subcultures I like. I doubt I could ever be a model (but you never knoooow~) but I'm thinking something more along the likes of owner of an alternative-catering company (*COUGH*ProjectDV*COUGH) and simply someone who can be found at a lot of alternative events.
And...do you guys think I should add random pictures to my entries? I see a lot of blogs do that, though I never understood it...Why post the picture when it doesn't belong to you or has nothing to do with the entry? Well, sometimes I think it works. Like when posting a picture of, say, piercings you want to have...*ahem*
Also, I won't be able to post much else aside from the rest of these days of the Goth Challenge for a while. After that, I'll probably just post...whatever. I'll be operating from the library and I have a lot of catching up elsewhere online. I have no idea how long this no-internet thing is going to go for at home, but...it's not looking good.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
The Goth Challenge: Day 24
Day Twenty-Four: Name the best websites for Goths.
- Google (el oh el)
- Gothic Charm School
- Old Curiosity Shop
- Etsy
- Ebay
Not in order of what I think is best...I think...?
Oh, yeah...
Short list, but I can't think of anything else, really, aside from actual stores.
I'M ALIVE?!
SO. In wake of the hurricane here aaaand my home situation (yeah, I moved) aaaand Ramadan, um...I'm alive!
Gosh, I have so much to read...so much to look at...and not just here. Fanfics, email...Whoa. I've got a lot of catching up to do. As for the Goth Challenge, I dutifully continued with it even while offline! I have all of the entries with me, but I'm just going to finish with the last of the ones for the last six days and then upload the ones from offline afterwards. Same with...all other entries I made while offline...
On a completely unrelated note, today is Eid, but...there's nothing special happenin' here. At least from what I know. Nothing planned...*sigh* Really boring. I miss the good ol' days...
Gosh, I have so much to read...so much to look at...and not just here. Fanfics, email...Whoa. I've got a lot of catching up to do. As for the Goth Challenge, I dutifully continued with it even while offline! I have all of the entries with me, but I'm just going to finish with the last of the ones for the last six days and then upload the ones from offline afterwards. Same with...all other entries I made while offline...
On a completely unrelated note, today is Eid, but...there's nothing special happenin' here. At least from what I know. Nothing planned...*sigh* Really boring. I miss the good ol' days...
Monday, August 15, 2011
The Goth Challenge: Day 9
Possible last GC's day until I learn more on my home situation...
Day Nine: What genre of music do you dislike?
Since it says "dislike" and not "hate" or "refuse to listen to", I shall be honest and admit I'm not fond of (American) pop and hip-hop. Now, don't get me wrong...my musical library is extremely diverse. I'm also a fans of Eminem, Insane Clown Posse, Gorillaz, DJ OZMA, and HOME MADE Kazoku, especially the first three, so I can't say I hate the genre. I'm just not going to go looking for music of said genres, unlike what I constantly do for metal, rock, etc.
Like many genres I don't fancy, with it comes to hip-hop I'm picky and weird. There's only one song by Rihanna I like (Disturbia~!), I overall like the Black Eyed Peas, Beastie Boys, (the above previously mentioned artists/groups), I really like Cupid's Cupid Shuffle, a few Mary J. Blige songs I really like, even one Snoop Dogg song, but...music like that most of the time and what I hear around my community? Hell no. Not Lil' Jon, not Ludacris, not Lil' Mama, not Chris Brown...though I will honestly admit a lot of pathetic/trash hip-hop songs have AWESOME beats/tunes. Case in point? That horrendous song Get Low. I still hear that song and wish ever so wistfully that it had better lyrics to such an amazing beat...*shudders* I know more about that song than I ever wished I knew. I'd rather just hear it point blank like they do in ICP songs.
As for pop, well...I have no idea what the deal is there. First of all, the only American pop bands/artists I can think of that I even have one song of in my music library...they literally only have one song in my library. The ones right and only in my head right now are Lady GaGa's Bad Romance (LOVE the music video and lyrics!!) and Ke$ha's Tik Tok (love the tune). Not many, I know...Even I think there has to be more...??
Weirdest thing of all is that if you were to look into my music library, you'll see a lot of pop from other countries...Maybe I'm prejudiced, le gasp.
And...I think that's it. I don't dislike country, jazz, opera, as I have likes in all of those, but the above mentioned genres are my least liked.
Info on the challenge here.
Day Nine: What genre of music do you dislike?
Since it says "dislike" and not "hate" or "refuse to listen to", I shall be honest and admit I'm not fond of (American) pop and hip-hop. Now, don't get me wrong...my musical library is extremely diverse. I'm also a fans of Eminem, Insane Clown Posse, Gorillaz, DJ OZMA, and HOME MADE Kazoku, especially the first three, so I can't say I hate the genre. I'm just not going to go looking for music of said genres, unlike what I constantly do for metal, rock, etc.
Like many genres I don't fancy, with it comes to hip-hop I'm picky and weird. There's only one song by Rihanna I like (Disturbia~!), I overall like the Black Eyed Peas, Beastie Boys, (the above previously mentioned artists/groups), I really like Cupid's Cupid Shuffle, a few Mary J. Blige songs I really like, even one Snoop Dogg song, but...music like that most of the time and what I hear around my community? Hell no. Not Lil' Jon, not Ludacris, not Lil' Mama, not Chris Brown...though I will honestly admit a lot of pathetic/trash hip-hop songs have AWESOME beats/tunes. Case in point? That horrendous song Get Low. I still hear that song and wish ever so wistfully that it had better lyrics to such an amazing beat...*shudders* I know more about that song than I ever wished I knew. I'd rather just hear it point blank like they do in ICP songs.
As for pop, well...I have no idea what the deal is there. First of all, the only American pop bands/artists I can think of that I even have one song of in my music library...they literally only have one song in my library. The ones right and only in my head right now are Lady GaGa's Bad Romance (LOVE the music video and lyrics!!) and Ke$ha's Tik Tok (love the tune). Not many, I know...Even I think there has to be more...??
Weirdest thing of all is that if you were to look into my music library, you'll see a lot of pop from other countries...Maybe I'm prejudiced, le gasp.
And...I think that's it. I don't dislike country, jazz, opera, as I have likes in all of those, but the above mentioned genres are my least liked.
Info on the challenge here.
The Goth Challenge: Day 8 (late)
Due to the new changes in my...well, my life, I'm just going to do these two challenges in case I can't get back online for a few days to come...*le sigh*
Day Eight: What's your worst and best experience with non-Goths?
My worst...
My worst was when I was at a Youth Day event in my (Muslim) community. All of the girls were flipping out makeup and whatnot, so I decided to experiment with makeup and don a sort of "Crow" look, but I think I mentioned before I never saw it as the Crow's look per se. I consider it more of a...jester/harlequin/joker sort of look, which I love more than crows. Afterwards, parading proudly around mostly to get me a mirror, I was confronted by one of the older sisters who I've known since...I was seven, eight, nine, maybe? She loudly chided me for having a "Satanic" look and that I should have known better or someshat like that. Interestingly the only feeling I remember having was wishing she hadn't said what she said in front of her daughters and other younger girls. I kept the look for some time until it was time to put the makeup away.
Fortunately, some of the young women around my age were more open-minded about it and commented that I looked nice. Or something along those lines. I can't remember, but it was positive. They took my pic upon request...but that picture is probably long gone or floating about the internet and oh, so embarrassing. Right. Sure.
Best experience...
I can't remember. That...sucks.
Today's challenge to be uploaded next.
Info on the challenge here.
Day Eight: What's your worst and best experience with non-Goths?
My worst...
My worst was when I was at a Youth Day event in my (Muslim) community. All of the girls were flipping out makeup and whatnot, so I decided to experiment with makeup and don a sort of "Crow" look, but I think I mentioned before I never saw it as the Crow's look per se. I consider it more of a...jester/harlequin/joker sort of look, which I love more than crows. Afterwards, parading proudly around mostly to get me a mirror, I was confronted by one of the older sisters who I've known since...I was seven, eight, nine, maybe? She loudly chided me for having a "Satanic" look and that I should have known better or someshat like that. Interestingly the only feeling I remember having was wishing she hadn't said what she said in front of her daughters and other younger girls. I kept the look for some time until it was time to put the makeup away.
Fortunately, some of the young women around my age were more open-minded about it and commented that I looked nice. Or something along those lines. I can't remember, but it was positive. They took my pic upon request...but that picture is probably long gone or floating about the internet and oh, so embarrassing. Right. Sure.
Best experience...
I can't remember. That...sucks.
Today's challenge to be uploaded next.
Info on the challenge here.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Fallout
At last (and this is sarcasm) we get back to the more depressing, irate subjects...
You may skip.
So. Dad comes in about twenty minutes ago with some boxes. Now, last week my Mom told me that we need to start packing since we're going to be moving soon, so this was something I was looking forward to since...well, we need boxes to start packing. Thing is, right after my dad brings the boxes in, he tells me we need to start packing...because we need to be out by tomorrow.
What. The. FUCKERY?!
Last time a stunt like this was pulled, we were evicted from the last place we lived at not even a year ago and got the eviction notice THREE DAYS before we had to leave! It was horrible! We ruined so many things because we were rushing to pack...things were lost...and the place we left behind was a wretched, embarrassing mess. It's going to be even WORSE than that! But forget that...
With the way he worded it, it sounds like we got evicted...AGAIN!
So. I may not be able to work on the Goth Challenge today, and maybe tomorrow or whatever, depending on how this goes...
I'm going to try to organize my room, now.
You may skip.
So. Dad comes in about twenty minutes ago with some boxes. Now, last week my Mom told me that we need to start packing since we're going to be moving soon, so this was something I was looking forward to since...well, we need boxes to start packing. Thing is, right after my dad brings the boxes in, he tells me we need to start packing...because we need to be out by tomorrow.
What. The. FUCKERY?!
Last time a stunt like this was pulled, we were evicted from the last place we lived at not even a year ago and got the eviction notice THREE DAYS before we had to leave! It was horrible! We ruined so many things because we were rushing to pack...things were lost...and the place we left behind was a wretched, embarrassing mess. It's going to be even WORSE than that! But forget that...
With the way he worded it, it sounds like we got evicted...AGAIN!
So. I may not be able to work on the Goth Challenge today, and maybe tomorrow or whatever, depending on how this goes...
I'm going to try to organize my room, now.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
10 Followers!
And I am this much closer to corrupting you all! *Maniacal laughter* Bowahaha!
Thanks, everyone! To congratulate, I shall...
...
Well, there really isn't much I can do, aside from give everyone virtual hugs. *HUGS* :D
I started working on the second part of this fanfic I've been working on since...last year...under one of my *ahem* "aliases". I'd give you the link to the first part, but then you'd know who I am. Pfft. "What's the point of telling us" is probably what you're thinking, right? Well, in the (near) future, I will divulge all of my...*ahem*..."aliases" to ze world, but I'm not ready. I'm not sure how they'll be taken since...*ahem*...well, that's a long story for another time. *Deadpan*
I'm feeling particularly out of it today, even though I managed to wake up at about noontime. *Sigh* There's so much I have to do, so much I've neglected and it's really not going to do me any good, especially since it deals with me getting financial support, which I desperately need. It doesn't help that there was no One Piece this week! One Piece never fails to make me happier!!
Yes. I am a huge One Piece fangirl. Yes, I said One Piece. Yes, you know, that manga/anime you constantly see beside Naruto and Bleach that everyone who has read/watched it tries to get you into but you are very wary about because it looks "childish" and "stupid". Read One Piece's Wikipedia entry and be amazed, fellow non-believers. Be amazed. There's a lot more to OP than what meets the eye. Best manga....EVER. And the anime has made me cry too many times to count.
I'm ranting and going everywhere right now, so I shall shut up and attempt to do my homework or clean my room...while staying online. Hm. I'm going to bed.
Thanks, everyone! To congratulate, I shall...
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Well, there really isn't much I can do, aside from give everyone virtual hugs. *HUGS* :D
I started working on the second part of this fanfic I've been working on since...last year...under one of my *ahem* "aliases". I'd give you the link to the first part, but then you'd know who I am. Pfft. "What's the point of telling us" is probably what you're thinking, right? Well, in the (near) future, I will divulge all of my...*ahem*..."aliases" to ze world, but I'm not ready. I'm not sure how they'll be taken since...*ahem*...well, that's a long story for another time. *Deadpan*
I'm feeling particularly out of it today, even though I managed to wake up at about noontime. *Sigh* There's so much I have to do, so much I've neglected and it's really not going to do me any good, especially since it deals with me getting financial support, which I desperately need. It doesn't help that there was no One Piece this week! One Piece never fails to make me happier!!
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| Last chapter spread | Huge picture is huge CLICKY CLICKY! |
I'm ranting and going everywhere right now, so I shall shut up and attempt to do my homework or clean my room...while staying online. Hm. I'm going to bed.
The Goth Challenge: Day 7
Day Seven: Ten of your favourite goth bands.
Oh, I was looking forward to this~! Since it's impossible to list my favorite bands, no matter what genre they are, I'll just list the ones and/or songs by certain bands that have been in my head for a while within the past month or two. These bands are in no particular order, I just gave them numbers so I'd know I was listing ten.
1. Katzenjammer Kabarett
I love this song so much, and the lyrics especially, that I've added it into a story of mine.
2. Schwarz Stein
Most favorite song by this band. OH GOODNESS I love these two, Kaya and Hora!
3. Clan of Xymox
Clan of Xymox has been a long-standing favorite band.
4. Paralysed Age
Another song that I believe is so fantastic, I must add it into a story. This isn't the best version of the song, but it's still really good.
5. Bella Morte
Yet another long-standing favorite band.
6. London After Midnight
Overall, pretty much the first goth band I came across, I think. Another long-standing favorite band.
7. Two Witches
IGNORE THE VIDEO. It's the only vid I could find with this song on YouTube. The video is NOT related to the song! I swear if I can find something else, I'll use it instead...
8. Type O Negative
Rest in peace, Peter Steele.
9. Diary of Dreams
...I couldn't decide which song to put up.
10. She Wants Revenge
This song...Um, you should see the comments.
I wish I could list more than 10, but I think that'll be overkill.
Seriously. There are too many bands I love. Thus these ten are constantly changing positions in my list of favorites. Not to mention these are just goth bands. What about those in the top that aren't goth? ;)
LIKE TURMION KÄTILÖT AND INSANE CLOWN POSSE. My loves...~!!!
This was fun. Haven't listened to my music in a while. I apologize in advance if the videos go away in the future. I'll try to get different ones if that happens.
Info on the challenge here.
Oh, I was looking forward to this~! Since it's impossible to list my favorite bands, no matter what genre they are, I'll just list the ones and/or songs by certain bands that have been in my head for a while within the past month or two. These bands are in no particular order, I just gave them numbers so I'd know I was listing ten.
1. Katzenjammer Kabarett
I love this song so much, and the lyrics especially, that I've added it into a story of mine.
2. Schwarz Stein
Most favorite song by this band. OH GOODNESS I love these two, Kaya and Hora!
3. Clan of Xymox
Clan of Xymox has been a long-standing favorite band.
4. Paralysed Age
Another song that I believe is so fantastic, I must add it into a story. This isn't the best version of the song, but it's still really good.
5. Bella Morte
Yet another long-standing favorite band.
6. London After Midnight
Overall, pretty much the first goth band I came across, I think. Another long-standing favorite band.
7. Two Witches
IGNORE THE VIDEO. It's the only vid I could find with this song on YouTube. The video is NOT related to the song! I swear if I can find something else, I'll use it instead...
8. Type O Negative
Rest in peace, Peter Steele.
9. Diary of Dreams
...I couldn't decide which song to put up.
10. She Wants Revenge
This song...Um, you should see the comments.
I wish I could list more than 10, but I think that'll be overkill.
Seriously. There are too many bands I love. Thus these ten are constantly changing positions in my list of favorites. Not to mention these are just goth bands. What about those in the top that aren't goth? ;)
LIKE TURMION KÄTILÖT AND INSANE CLOWN POSSE. My loves...~!!!
This was fun. Haven't listened to my music in a while. I apologize in advance if the videos go away in the future. I'll try to get different ones if that happens.
Info on the challenge here.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
In other news...
...It's nearing the middle of Ramadan (yeah, riiiight). I've slacked off this whole week, even with my homework. I really have to pick up the pace...
Not to mention my room. It looks like a tornado durn torn right through it n' a NASA shuttle done took off in it. And then, a bomb went off. And then I died.
Done a lot of research about the Wave Gotik Treffen. Never saw a dark-skinned person in any of the videos I just watched...and I don't remember seeing any in previous videos I've watched, either. I know you're out there, mein kin...WHERE ARE YOU ALL??
It's slightly...I don't want to say "depressing". It's more like...strange. Apparently goth and other such alternative-lifestyle-lovers that are of ethnic groups exist, but you rarely ever see them. Is it because we simply rarely have the money or someshat like that (though some truth to it) or what? Tell me, someone, it's killing me.
And lastly, piercings. I've done a lot of research on piercings lately and...boy oh boy. All I want are my ears to be pierced as much as possible, two nose rings, my septum pierced, and snakebites. All but the snakebites seem easy enough. And if it weren't for the fact that oral piercings are so close to or in constant contact with the teeth and gums, this would be nothing to worry about. Naturally. And if you think about it, since I wear a hijab, you'd only see the snakebites and nose rings since the septum can be easily hidden.
...But...
I'm really really really REALLY nervous about gum recession and teeth damage from the snakebites. Sure, I'll bet there are people who have had snakebites for years and have had no problems, but is it from good care and a watchful eye that you won't have problems or does it just happen and there's nothing one can do about it? The obvious fact that anyone with oral piercings has a chance to get gum recession and teeth damage makes sense, but can it be 100% avoidable with care? I want snakebites so bad...
Also, you'll notice that the majority of people getting snakebites nowadays are teens and young adults. Forget them, what about the adults that have had them for years (emphasis on years)? I wish I could interview such a person...How did they care for them? Have they had any damage? How did they manage the damage?
...And as for the obvious of getting them and only keeping them for a few years to reduce the permanent possible effects of oral damage, I don't know about that. If I got piercings, I'd want to keep them forever...
Life's full of tough choices, ain't it...?
Not to mention my room. It looks like a tornado durn torn right through it n' a NASA shuttle done took off in it. And then, a bomb went off. And then I died.
Done a lot of research about the Wave Gotik Treffen. Never saw a dark-skinned person in any of the videos I just watched...and I don't remember seeing any in previous videos I've watched, either. I know you're out there, mein kin...WHERE ARE YOU ALL??
It's slightly...I don't want to say "depressing". It's more like...strange. Apparently goth and other such alternative-lifestyle-lovers that are of ethnic groups exist, but you rarely ever see them. Is it because we simply rarely have the money or someshat like that (though some truth to it) or what? Tell me, someone, it's killing me.
And lastly, piercings. I've done a lot of research on piercings lately and...boy oh boy. All I want are my ears to be pierced as much as possible, two nose rings, my septum pierced, and snakebites. All but the snakebites seem easy enough. And if it weren't for the fact that oral piercings are so close to or in constant contact with the teeth and gums, this would be nothing to worry about. Naturally. And if you think about it, since I wear a hijab, you'd only see the snakebites and nose rings since the septum can be easily hidden.
...But...
I'm really really really REALLY nervous about gum recession and teeth damage from the snakebites. Sure, I'll bet there are people who have had snakebites for years and have had no problems, but is it from good care and a watchful eye that you won't have problems or does it just happen and there's nothing one can do about it? The obvious fact that anyone with oral piercings has a chance to get gum recession and teeth damage makes sense, but can it be 100% avoidable with care? I want snakebites so bad...
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| I'd want snakebites close to the lip/practically on the lip like these, only on both sides |
Also, you'll notice that the majority of people getting snakebites nowadays are teens and young adults. Forget them, what about the adults that have had them for years (emphasis on years)? I wish I could interview such a person...How did they care for them? Have they had any damage? How did they manage the damage?
...And as for the obvious of getting them and only keeping them for a few years to reduce the permanent possible effects of oral damage, I don't know about that. If I got piercings, I'd want to keep them forever...
Life's full of tough choices, ain't it...?
The Goth Challenge: Day 5
Day 5: Is there a local Goth band or group in your area?
...No bands/musicians in my immediate area that I know of. Goth group? The Freaks of Connecticut (that's not the name, I just call us that). Not much is going on, though, at least I think so. Sure, the club is around once a month but I think I already mentioned why that's just not happening.
There are many bands and projects from New England, however.
There are many bands and projects from New England, however.
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| 51 Peg | Washington DC | DISBANDED |
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| Cesium_137 | Philadelphia |
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| Ego Likeness | Maryland |
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| Bella Morte | Virginia |
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| Interface | New York (can't find a better picture) |
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| Terrorfakt | New York |
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| Unto Ashes | New York |
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| Android Lust/Shikhee | New York |
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| Chemlab | New York |
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| Informatik | Boston |
Unfortunately, the only bands I've heard of here are Ego Likeness, Bella Morte and Android Lust, but I've only listened to Ego Likeness and Bella Morte. Bella Morte was one of the first bands I got into when I discovered the goth scene.
I guess it's nice to know only one of these bands/projects have disbanded.
NOW TO HEAR NEW MUSIC! 8D
Info on the challenge here.
I guess it's nice to know only one of these bands/projects have disbanded.
NOW TO HEAR NEW MUSIC! 8D
Info on the challenge here.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
LIMBO
I spend a lot of my time online doing one of three or all three things: reading fanfiction, listening to music/researching for new music and browsing for research and information. Ton— this morning I've spent a lot of my time doing...research.
It allll started while I was looking at some new uploads by people I'm following on YouTube. One young gal, who is also someone I watch on deviantART, uploaded a "walkthrough" of her playing this fan-fucking-tastic indie PC game called Limbo.
Limbo seems to be...a game unlike any out there. It's a 2D sidescroller, and you know many games like this are the best among the best, and classic puzzle-platform game. OH, but this is like Mario for the dark lovers out there. I swear....look up some videos on YouTube. Feast your eyes on this magnificence!
The primary character in Limbo is a nameless boy who awakens in the middle of a forest on the "edge of hell". The boy seeks his missing sister, and encounters only a few human characters that attack or run away from him. Not to mention mother fucking bigass spiders, weird, creepy-ass sharptoothed wormlike things, humanoids looking like children that commit suicide with maggot like things attached to their heads (or is that web?), and the environment itself can be your demise. And the whole game is in grayscale with black to fill in the boy (his eyes are white), the creatures, etc! OH, such FUN~! I do mean this 100% and I'm severely arachnophobic! I still want it!
It allll started while I was looking at some new uploads by people I'm following on YouTube. One young gal, who is also someone I watch on deviantART, uploaded a "walkthrough" of her playing this fan-fucking-tastic indie PC game called Limbo.
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| LIMBO Xbox Live Arcade cover | Source |
Limbo seems to be...a game unlike any out there. It's a 2D sidescroller, and you know many games like this are the best among the best, and classic puzzle-platform game. OH, but this is like Mario for the dark lovers out there. I swear....look up some videos on YouTube. Feast your eyes on this magnificence!
The primary character in Limbo is a nameless boy who awakens in the middle of a forest on the "edge of hell". The boy seeks his missing sister, and encounters only a few human characters that attack or run away from him. Not to mention mother fucking bigass spiders, weird, creepy-ass sharptoothed wormlike things, humanoids looking like children that commit suicide with maggot like things attached to their heads (or is that web?), and the environment itself can be your demise. And the whole game is in grayscale with black to fill in the boy (his eyes are white), the creatures, etc! OH, such FUN~! I do mean this 100% and I'm severely arachnophobic! I still want it!
So that definitely says something!
Man, though, the music can creep the shit out of you. Think...Silent Hill.
I'm going to create a wishlist of indie and other strange games I wish to add to my collection and show what I find here. I need a larger video game selection aside from Mario, TLOZ, Kingdom Hearts, Jak and Daxter, and Final Fantasy.
Seriously.
The Goth Challenge: Day 4
Day 4: Name a stereotype or cliche you can relate to.
I'm not even going to comment on that "a" stereotype part. Did she seriously...?
I'm not even going to comment on that "a" stereotype part. Did she seriously...?
- Probably the most typical of loved cliches, I love Halloween. Love it. It also, however, frightens me, but that's partly due to what Muslims are told about Halloween (or at least I know I was). Let's just say that next time you run into someone dressed like a wraith, that might not be someone and more on the lines of something. I've had a fascination with Halloween since I was young, amiss everything, but more of the Halloween aesthetic (and the colors~!) than the whole modern-day traditions of Halloween. Also...Halloween has rules. Respect them or stay home. Like I do.
- The first time I ever tried dark makeup was during a girls' gathering in my community. Instead of lipstick, I put khol on my lips and down my eyes and corners of my mouth in lines like what I've learned is called "the Crow" look. That's not what inspired it. Long before I saw the movie, I had/have a love for jesters and harlequins. I consider that a carny/circus sort of look. What is the big hubbub about that look if its done right...? Sure, its overused, but hey, cliches are cliches for a reason. Look at how many goths love Halloween.
- Black. All black. Favorite color in the universe. Now that I know what the interior of a house would look if all black, I'm even reconsidering not painting my house or at least one room all black and white. I'll talk more about this soon, it makes me so excited.
- I've always dreamed of myself to be the friendly neighborhood "witch doctor" once I get into herbal, homeopathic and macrobiotic foods. I'll be like that hippy/witch who lives in a creepy or intimidating looking house who is one hundred percent friendly...to those who deserve it...and as long as I'm not bothered. I don't know if this is a cliche or not...aside from it dealing with witches.
- I like skulls and bats, but within reason.
- I'm not a very happy person at first glance. People, even literal strangers on the street have told me to smile and asked why I look so "sad" or "angry". I don't mean to look that way, I just prefer a neutral, expressionless face. My emotions, however, will write themselves all over my face like a mood ring unless I put effort into doing otherwise. I will also happily admit I do not like to smile. I almost hate smiling. I'd rather stay neutral or smirk. Grinning is optional, depending on the situation and why. Of course, when I'm genuinely happy or other, I'll do all that smiling or slight smiles on my own. But just smiling? For no reason that I see? That....that is what I almost hate.
- I have a fascination with cemeteries, but that goes along with Halloween (even though my love for Halloween is greater). In some ways, they also frighten me.
- Black makeup all the time (if I could). Or more so black and white makeup, my favorite combination.
- I like to be left alone.
- I actually do very much like dark and disturbing things.
And now the anti-cliches: things that are usually loved by goths or other darkly inclined but I cannot stand...
- Spiders. Right here at the top so everyone knows it. I. Am. SEVERELY. Arachnophobic. Pictures of them will frighten me and stop me from entering a room just as much as a real life one, no matter what size. I've had nervous breakdowns over the tiniest of spiders. I can seem to have a very fortunate built-in spider sense that allows me to spot them no matter what size. Believe me. My whole family can testament.
- I believe vampires are overrated, or perhaps the words should be "have been incorrectly and pathetically portrayed in the media", especially within the last...oh...four years or so. High school vampires? Teen-aged vampires? No shadows? No Dracula unless bastardized by Hollywood?! FAIRIES?! Oh, I think I've died a little more inside...To sum it up, I don't like:
- True Blood
- The Vampire Dairies
- The Twilight movies (the books were good, though overall still...not the "true" vampires, of course)
- Blade
- Dracula 2000, Dracula II, Dracula III
- I'm 50/50 on Buffy the Vampire Slayer
- And I thought I was interested in Laurell K. Hamilton's vampire stories, but I'm beginning to doubt it...
Info on the challenge here.
This is no act
This is a sort of add-on to the second part of the Goth Challenge, since my head was all jumbled up back then...I suddenly know all of the things I've wanted to talk about.
Starting with this thing my mom has told me a few times I've shown and explained to her the pictures of African-American lolitas I've seen while doing some extensive research and searches online, or even just browsing. I'm going to say it: most of them are not at all...well put-together. Is this in my opinion? Hell yes, this is just my opinion. I would post pictures, but that would be mean, I suppose. What do I mean by "put-together"? I'm talking the typical things that would make anyone, no matter what they were wearing, look awkward: bad wigs, wigs of colors that don't match their skin, clothes of materials that look very much like costume material (like satin), wonky colored materials that, again, don't at all match their skin, and I could go on.
Of course not all dark-skinned lolitas look like this. There are three I can think of (via mental imaging) that looked wonderful! Inspiring! But like I said, most of them are not. I told my mother this and you know what she said? "I think many of these girls are into the lolita scene because they might have white friends who are part of it."
That got me thinking about something else that I'm wondering.
It's obvious. You go to an alternative event and you might, just might be lucky enough to see one dark-skinned fellow. Okay. Some people may or may not see that one alternative of color and use them as the poster child for proof that alternative subcultures are diverse and tolerant of, duh, being different. Whatever. What I'm getting to is...what does that say about me, huh?
I'm African-American, but have no white friends. I really mean that; there aren't any white girls my age in my community that I can think of off the top of my head unless they moved away. I discovered these subcultures on my own through my own research. That's the way it's always been. When I saw/heard/thought of something, asked about it and received a response that didn't satisfy me, I looked it up online or in a book. I was fifteen when I finally, after years of admiring them at a distance, looked up the alternative subcultures and realized I've always been a part of them. This is simply, utterly, truly who I am. I'm not faking this, I'm not trying to be someone else or "act like I'm white". Fuck that.
I'm preparing myself for the day I'm asked questions like that from strangers and maybe even people in my own community, aside from the Devil Speeches that I might and have already received once. Oh, yeah. That was really lovely. I already know what to say to those lovely naysayers who will/might bust a gut over my decisions...
I wonder what'll happen when the day comes that I arrive at an alternative event decked out in wonderful, proper attire, but my imagery as African American and a Muslim woman on top of that? (Because guys can totally get away with that not being obvious.) I almost look forward to the day...
Starting with this thing my mom has told me a few times I've shown and explained to her the pictures of African-American lolitas I've seen while doing some extensive research and searches online, or even just browsing. I'm going to say it: most of them are not at all...well put-together. Is this in my opinion? Hell yes, this is just my opinion. I would post pictures, but that would be mean, I suppose. What do I mean by "put-together"? I'm talking the typical things that would make anyone, no matter what they were wearing, look awkward: bad wigs, wigs of colors that don't match their skin, clothes of materials that look very much like costume material (like satin), wonky colored materials that, again, don't at all match their skin, and I could go on.
Of course not all dark-skinned lolitas look like this. There are three I can think of (via mental imaging) that looked wonderful! Inspiring! But like I said, most of them are not. I told my mother this and you know what she said? "I think many of these girls are into the lolita scene because they might have white friends who are part of it."
That got me thinking about something else that I'm wondering.
It's obvious. You go to an alternative event and you might, just might be lucky enough to see one dark-skinned fellow. Okay. Some people may or may not see that one alternative of color and use them as the poster child for proof that alternative subcultures are diverse and tolerant of, duh, being different. Whatever. What I'm getting to is...what does that say about me, huh?
I'm African-American, but have no white friends. I really mean that; there aren't any white girls my age in my community that I can think of off the top of my head unless they moved away. I discovered these subcultures on my own through my own research. That's the way it's always been. When I saw/heard/thought of something, asked about it and received a response that didn't satisfy me, I looked it up online or in a book. I was fifteen when I finally, after years of admiring them at a distance, looked up the alternative subcultures and realized I've always been a part of them. This is simply, utterly, truly who I am. I'm not faking this, I'm not trying to be someone else or "act like I'm white". Fuck that.
I'm preparing myself for the day I'm asked questions like that from strangers and maybe even people in my own community, aside from the Devil Speeches that I might and have already received once. Oh, yeah. That was really lovely. I already know what to say to those lovely naysayers who will/might bust a gut over my decisions...
I wonder what'll happen when the day comes that I arrive at an alternative event decked out in wonderful, proper attire, but my imagery as African American and a Muslim woman on top of that? (Because guys can totally get away with that not being obvious.) I almost look forward to the day...
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