The Stages

I don't think I ever explained something about the title of my blog, here. It's also called Stage Two: The Babybat rants, but it's the "stage two" part that is most important. Why stage two?

My first stage, stage zero, was doing what every (...or a typical...) child does: what they're told. I believed what I was told. I did what I was told. Or in other words, I was simply that. A child. Innocent, for the most part, and my little heart untainted. My stage one was the stage of rebellion and figuring out what my likes and dislikes are, but still pretty much too afraid to break out of my protective mold as much as I wanted to, around ages ten to fifteen. Stage two, this stage, is when I was/am beginning to travel on the road to my ultimate dreams and who I really want to be, not what others say I should be, believing what I believe to be truth...yet conflicted between myself(s). That lasted from around age fifteen to nineteen...going on twenty. And now, I'm on my way to stage three, which is me on that road to my ultimate dream and already knowing I am indeed who I want to be and no one will change that. I don't care how much someone doesn't like it.

Or...am I still on stage two...?

Perhaps for some while longer, huh? After all, there is a lot of experimenting I plan to do once I get out of here. I still can't believe I'm going to be twenty years old tomorrow...or that in four days, there will be a place reserved just for lil' o' me! Sort of; I'll have a roommate, but you get it...

Yeah. I guess I am still on stage two, for now. Hopefully next year, or by halfway to next year, I'll be on my stage three...Once that happens, I'll leave this blog behind and use one I've had on reserve since last year...

Oh, and...I haven't done any shopping yet, but thanks to this young adult program I'm in, the place helping me get out of here and on my feet, I have a small dish set, a small TV with VCR (booyah!), and a black lamp, all donated. And I bought meself two hard plastic goblets from a dollar store...that are silver and black...with silver skeleton hands "holding" them~ I. Love. Them. I will be using them every day!! Also got two stone gravestones that'll work well for bookends!! My first Halloween-season purchases~!!

Also...I'm still intending to uncover, one day soon. I've only covered this whole while because I chose to. I like covering my head, I want to get some hats, for instance, but...I also want to uncover, not wear a hijab all the time. Like I said, lots of experimenting is in order...

Still no internet, so...I'll be updating when I can, as usual.

And thanks for the good wishes!

The rolling stone...

Things are finally moving forward.

Hi, hi, yo, how's ev'ryone? So I've finally seen the apartment I'm going to be moving into. It's a very nice place in an overall good location (right next to a Subway...) and I met my roommate. The landlord said it should be ready for move-in on October 1st, so...I'm slowly, subtlety...packing. It's not easy, I tell you; remember, no one knows of my intentions to move out. I won't even be taking any furniture with me. I'm literally going to be starting from scratch. It's exciting...but I'm worried about how my family will react...

As for school, eh. It looks like I'll either be going to the Winter semester at Gateway or will take an accelerated course in October. Either way, I just want to be in school, dammit. I want to get this over with...Also, there is a possibility I could end up working at Gateway, too, if the latter plan doesn't work. Or maybe even if so...

So things are slowly moving along, ya? Finally got a freaking cell phone, too.

As for my stories...I've been working on my Bleach fanfiction series for weeks, if not over a month, now. I really want to get it done. I've also started working back on a story inspired by Alice's Adventures in Wonderland that I put on hold last year.

...Yeah...

Hopefully things will all work out...

Short update, but I hope to get back into the swing of things once I move out and get myself together.

Saia~