Outfit testrun

Fortunately I had something ready to upload without having to make a new video. I do plan to do some more talking, as I've gone over some topics in my head that I'd like to make into videos. Not sure when that'll happen, though, as between this college related stress and my own anxiety, I'm going into a motivational vegetative state...

I kind of like this outfit...What do you think?

Yes. Messy room is messy. I assure you it doesn't look...erm...quite as bad right now...sort of...

Apologies and thanks!

Sorry for lack of activity...Since getting my diploma, I've been very stressed, anxious and discombobulated. Trying to do all of this paperwork and research for what to do next...I'm not a happy bat. Not at all...

In other news, I have 20 followers!!! Never would have dreamed of getting this many! Thanks a million, you all! That makes this bat happy.

Second video

This doesn't mean I'll upload two videos next week!! /rant

This video is choppy for two reasons: I was extremely distracted and this "have discussions in front of a camera" thing is veeeeery new to me. :s

HEYHEY What's this?!

AT LAST!

Slightly edited

It finally came! Took long enough and my teacher told me long before it came anyways! But now I'm really looking forward to Monday. My clothes are washed, my iPod has all my music I want to listen to, now all I have to do is polish my boots an' I'm ready for whatever comes, baby! >D

The first thing on my list of ambitions is complete! Holy shat. And now...to be a college graduate!

I'm FREEEEEE— I wish...

Movie review: Dumplings

Dumplings is a Chinese mind-and-stomach-bender directed by Fruit Chan. I watched it because it was lat— I mean, early in the morning and I wanted to watch something upon the lines of horror without actually causing me to see nasty, horrible things behind my eyelids when I finally went to sleep. Honestly...I liked it. I give it seven out of ten stars and three and a half out of five stars.

2004

Firstly, I admit I have vorarephilia, so this was right up my alley. Yes, there will be spoilers for the movie.

The beginning is one of the parts that...could have been done better, but maybe the director was trying to give the movie a certain feel to it. It opens with you having no idea what is going on, but you're pulled right into the story. To make it all real short-like, the story is about an aging former-actress, who married a man I think around ten years older than her, eating an extremely expensive but very special dumpling recipe by a woman known as Aunt Mei. Aunt Mei says her recipe will make people younger and she is her best advertisement. How old is she? Never says how old in the beginning, but let's say around...oh, sixty-something...yet looks like a twenty year old. The secret ingredient to her dumplings? Human. Fetuses.

...I like that. I don't see what's so wrong about it. If people, and hell, we know they exist, don't want to have a baby, get an abortion and could give a flying figurine about what the hell happens to the fetus...well, someone could definitely consider that a free meal. If it keeps you alive, why not?

But let's not go there...it's off-topic anyway...

So aside from my own morbid curiosity as to wanting to know what dead ba— fetuses taste like, if it weren't for all of the cut-offs and cliffhangers as to why this, how's that, what the, and who the, I would say this is a ten-star, no-action, yes, there is sex, mind-fucking and should-have-seen-that-coming not-a-horror movie. It's more like disturbing sort that'll cause you to lose or broaden your appetite. At least I saw it in it's original language~

Now who wants Chinese dumplings~?

Next review: Breaking Dawn.

Good news and a list of things to do

I swear I don't even get this much random attention on my birthday...Pizza and soda?? BUT I STILL HAD TO DO THE DISHES?!

Aw, it's okay.

My teacher called and told me I passed my GED. So I must pat myself on my back. I seriously thought I wouldn't have passed and would be going back to school on Monday to the same old thing. She also told me to be happy, so I hope to make another video very soon. That'll make me happy~ On Monday, I'll be looking into what Gateway courses I can take and hopefully check out this place called CT Works so I can prepare myself for job searching and whatnot. So that'll be something new to look forward to.

And now, like what SaryWalrus very oftentimes does, I shall make me a list of things I hope to do during this new month:

1. Check out CT Works and get signed up

2. Upload a video at least once or twice a week

3. Discuss more on my interrogation in detail and 

4. Talk about my love of symbols

5. Make a video about (my) fetishes and phobias

6. Take more visits to the library

7. Organize my online accounts!

And lastly...#8. Attempt to smile more often, even if it's a small one.

Seriously. I don't like smiling unless I'm actually happy. When it comes to posing for a picture it just...doesn't come to me. I like neutral expressions. I'm not saying I'm averse to smiling!! I just like smiling when it just COMES to me, not when I'm told to...However, I've recently (heck, not just recently, now that I think about it) been told that I look sad, like I'm frowning, mean, and on and on...

People, if I was sad, frowning or trying to look mean, YOU WOULD KNOW. Believe me...

Real first video

Done with the new account and just in time before my mom kicks me off my own laptop, I finished my first video~! It's a small introduction, nothing much at all, none whatsoever, but it's just the beginning, I swear. I WILL be uploading more videos ASAP! Maybe even tomorrow...

So enjoy~! Helllooooo YouTube!

My Lenighma account will be for something else...Music videos and silly things, most likely...

Update

So I'm dead. That is, this blog is mostly dead. I know. So I've been wasting a lot of time all week or two, not even reading these wonderful books I borrowed from the library; shame on me. But I have been working on the next part of one of my fics and I have been thinking about more posts on this and my other (many) blogs.

I've finally made up my mind on this thing; I am making a new YouTube account. I'll have to re-upload the two videos I have up right now to that new account. Technically the account already exists but I just have to tweak some things. Now that I'm more comfortable and also spurred on by some awesome people I subscribed to yesterday, I will again attempt to put up more videos. I actually have a few ready...

With this decision also means my new Facebook account will have an actual purpose. I've already requested an invite to the Goth and More Blogging Community and if I'll allowed entry, will try to be around as much as possible. There really isn't an excuse anymore. I want to be more active, you see, in as many online alternative communities as possible. Since my laptop is currently being and will be hijacked by my mom for a while, I'm forced to use my Fatherboard desktop PC, Tron, which is an XP and not as fast as his younger counterpart, T2.L (my laptop). I hope to change that in the future...This means I won't be able to do as much, but I'll do what I can to prevent him from freezing and having any problems.

Also, do you think I should smile in my pictures? I don't really like smiling at all, as I prefer to have a neutral expression...but apparently it puts people off...

Movie review: Gypsy 83

I'm no professional, so sorry if this doesn't at all sound sane and coherent. Like the blog states, this is gonna be more of a, you guess it, rant.

Okay.

I wanted to like this movie. I've read many reviews on it from various bloggers who generally like it. Save one, but I can't remember who that was. But my overall take on it? Out of five stars? Two. Out of ten? Four. Harsh. What's the deal?

2001 | Source

First off, maybe it's just my cynical, impatient self, but I was expecting so much more from this movie, and not because it dealt with goths. Sort of. Suuure, it was great that the main characters are good friends that can tease the shit out of one another (man, I wish I could talk to people the way Gypsy does), are legit goths and the younger, Clive, is just coming out of the closet and all that, but...seriously? If anything, I loved the soundtrack, which is no surprise. But WHY did there have to be so much typical shat in it like many other indie teen angst/grow-up movies? Sex, uncensored. Heavy language, though that didn't bother me so much. Predicable climaxes? Yes. And...I don't know. I was just thoroughly annoyed.

I don't even know how to coherently translate my thoughts of this movie. One scene that made me think the movie wasn't so bad at all was when Clive and Gypsy get to the goth club...and then...for the love of god, did Clive have to say what he said? And then he runs out crying like a little....*ahem* saying that he doesn't fit in anywhere....How the hell did you expect them to take you after doing something so stupid as that!?...Let's just say I've watched enough Lifetime movies to have seen that coming, and let me tell you, it was not a good thought. I didn't like Gypsy. I didn't like Clive, though I tried. I only liked his personality, but his decisions? No. I wanted to STRANGLE Gypsy.

And then the sex scenes. Okay...so...you both have one-night stands...and then...both of you get your hearts broken in the worst of ways right after, pretty much? Mm hm. That...could have been executed a little bit differently...instead of just...

To make long story short, since I'm so discombobulated I can't think straight, I did not enjoy or like this movie. It will not be watched again.

Next review: Dumplings.