Monday, January 28, 2013

Life in the school culture


...Don't mind the title; I'm at school, that's all.

Second day of school after a long weekend of work. Man. I feel just like...well...a college student. 

Yesterday, my dad took my family out to a restaurant. Even my mother. To say it was nearly a disaster is...just my opinion. Arguments, the usual things we all hate, exhaustion and my poor older brother on the sidelines. And really crappy food; the tea was the only redeemer. Of course...the focus of our lovely family night, after simply arguing why the hell my little brother wasn't looking his best...was on me. Oh, yes. Let's attack Maryam, since she decided to make that godDAMNED post on Facebook!!! I'm not even getting into it. The rest of the dinner, I was just too disgusted, almost, to say much else. To say I was pissed doesn't even begin to explain. And it doesn't help there was a mention to "at least [I'm] not getting a sex change!", which means it will indeed be difficult to explain anything related to gender...even to my mom, as she was the one who made the comment to my father. The only one in my family who has even the slightest idea of my identity...and...gender...ah...situation, is my older brother. And I'm only guessing this. I really only hope...

So let's talk about something else. 

I've been doing some experimentation with my dress, as of late. Very slight experimentation, as...there isn't much to experiment with...but I've been having some fun. Today my dress is rather feminine, though shit like that is irrelevant. Unfortunately, I am at school and don't feel like lugging my iPad into the bathroom to take an awkward bathroom picture (there's no mirror big enough, anyway...or maybe I'm just making excuses...), but I'm wearing pants under a skirt without sides (flaps, if you will) and a long navy blue sleeveless sweater over a long-sleeved shirt. Of course, the pants, skirt and shirt are black. In fact, I'm currently in the cafetteria, wondering if I should spend some of the very little bit of money I have with me on lunch, even though I brought my own lunch from home. In a classic brown paper bag.
...Hmm...

It's snowing, by the way...Bloody hell...

Right, so I made a Tumblr account, one I will rarely do anything with due to my lack of internet access. I want to post naughty NSFW pictures of the many I favorited or whatnot, but...like I said...Internet..Eh, so far all I've posted are things related to DMC anyway, as I'm currently obsessed over it. I'm going to try to take some pictures at home to upload when I DO get online, but so far I've been forgetting to do that...

Ah, well.

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Wednesday, January 9, 2013

This blog is a mess

I never got around to editing this blog, as I said I would...but jeez louise. This blog is a mess. I don't know where to start. I feel like just going "hell with it" and making another blog for stage three after all.

So many posts I either completely disagree with, have different views on now...or...I just want to get rid of because I don't know what I was thinking/wonder why the hell I even made said post.

It's a new year. Sure, I have resolutions...most of which never get done...And I really want to start drawing again. It's all Devil May Cry's fault. I'm working on this stupidly large DMC fanfiction project (realize I said project) with elements from Spawn, Resident Evil, Silent Hill, and The Crow, and my desire to draw has re-emerged since...well, if I can't write what I see in my head, can I at least draw it...?

...I'm also hungry. All the time. It's been this way for a while, now. I expend more energy than I consume. I walk...everywhere. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to pick up some money, because...thanks to losing $100...and I know my roommate or one of her "friends" stole it...I have literally spent all of my money on the cheapest alternatives to what I usually buy...For instance, crackers instead of bread...

...Why am I talking about this...?

...I don't even know what to write...

At the library at the moment...


That's not a hat, by the way...I don't know what to call it, but it keep my ears warm.

Trying to quell my DMC obsession and get episodes of the anime from YouTube...but, eh...T2, here, isn't downloading the episodes the way he should be. If only I had the ability to modify his internet settings the way I need to at home...

I created a Tumblr, but...now I'm wondering why the hell I did that. I have absolutely nothing to post. And..I'm barely online as it is...

Thinking of selling my overbust corset, as...an underbust would work better for my future outfits. *Ahem* Not to mention...ah..I don't have a bust. Seriously.

Oh, that?

That's the bra. Not me.

DAMMIT, T2, I WANT THESE EPISODES!!!

...Since looking up more information on the DmC "reboot", I've also considered uploading my rant/cohesive reviews of DMC3, DMC4, and Bayonetta, but...I don't know. If it isn't obvious, I haven't exactly had the most stable mind as of late...I'm everywhere, chaotic...

...and work is taking a lot out of me, but only because I walk there and back...

As usual...nothing to talk about, people.

Still haven't spoken to my brother about leaving Islam and...everything else. But he knows. I know he does. It's a bit awkward...

...As you can see, this post is all over the place. Like my head...