Thursday, August 17, 2017

2k17 Thus Far | Hopes & Ideas

More than halfway into 2k17's been a complete and utter mess of ups and downs in a sort of...extreme opposites type of way. Not sure what to make of it...

I'll not get into the nitty gritty of it, as I have a few things to mention instead.

The #1 is that...I am on a hiatus with my writing. I know. You don't care. But this is a huge deal, for me. I've just...lost all drive on the account of lack of feedback and that's where I'm at as far as what I need, right now. And not just feedback from someone simply reading my work, but by someone who knows what I'm writing about. In this case, of course, I'm talking specifically about fanfiction.

But I'm also taking a sort-of, kind-of break from my original work as well...

...Actually, I'm taking a break in general. Including with Project DV; the wiki is under maintenance and only some articles can be read. I'd like to go back to school, as well. Likely for spring, or the dead of wintertime. Huh. That should be "fun".

The #2 is that I have been severely considering starting YouTube channels again. Back in 2012 and 2013, I did videos, and it was...interesting. I'd do a better job, now, even if I have to use Windows Movie Maker (which is all I have, right now, anyway) and GIMP. Why GIMP, I don't know, but...anyway.

The reason for this is simple. The content on YouTube—at least in the topics of interest—has been terribly lacking, as of late. I'm in and have been in a grave state of ennui (in more ways than one) and I need to do something about it. Even if the visual quality is piss poor in comparison to what's the norm, nowadays. I believe my iPod and webcams are good enough, so long as they are done right.

The question is...what sort of topics to work on?

Last time I had my videos up in 2012 - 2013, I made videos that were a sort of "norm": informational and outfit of the day(s). This time, for sure, I'm going to be a little more original about my content approach.

Certain things will remain in the Blaqueboxx only, of course. Some things are literally better left unsaid, after all.

The biggest problem I come across is that many of the topics I'd like to talk about are of things that I'm working on. Projects. Things that I shouldn't tell to too many people, in case they take my ideas. Because don't we all know that's horribly easy to do, nowadays. I just want to talk with someone about them. Not the whole bloody internet.

Since I honestly can't come up with an idea of what I'd like to talk about in coherent words...I'll just vent a bit.

I want to talk about video games, specifically ones from the early 2000s. Devil May Cry. Jak & Daxter. God, Jak & Daxter. How I miss you enough to cry. Ideas of Kingdom Hearts and what it was like and what it meant to me, back then. I want to talk about fanfiction and my peeves when it comes to them. About how I've been writing for so long, but I have very little to none of my work done. Maybe read some summaries of my fanfiction in videos to garner some attention...

Being a Kingdom Hearts trashcan, I want to talk about Kingdom Hearts theories, but not ones relating to Reverse Kingdom/TWTNS/WReV, of course; my Kingdom Hearts project. I'd also like to talk about what I wish was elaborated on in Kingdom Hearts, and what changes could be made to possible future titles, like realism mirroring what is in Final Fantasy titles (particularly FFX). People around, people to talk to...Things happening in the background. I think FFXV had that in it, too. I desire that so greatly...

I want to talk about music, and what it means to me, since I worship it, after all. How come I never hear anyone talk about Avatar? How I gain ideas and inspiration to write from music, even if I don't understand it, even if I don't know the meaning, and give examples with songs like "Pet" by A Perfect Circle and "Nightmare" by Avenged Sevenfold. How I listen to music. The scenes of dancing people and scenes and crossovers and...BSTD, of course; my mental, animated band. But music. What it means to me.

I want to rave about my favorite pairings, just to see if there is anyone else interested in them. Mentions right now are, of course, Ice & Space, or Even and Braig from Kingdom Hearts. I'd love to talk about my take on them, how I've taken their relationship in my fanfic The Schemes of Ice & Space. Possible ideas of how mpreg could happen in their relationship, horrifying as that sounds.

Hell, I'd like to talk about my take on yaoi and yuri. BL and GL. Peeves. Wishes. Ideas. Stories I've had or do have. My take on what I call ML and WL. Ideas of how stories could seem homoerotic, but are actually heterosexual pairings. And vice-versa. Stories I've had or do have in that regard. 


So much more than what's out there, right now.

...Yeah. I feel I can definitely do this, now that I've typed all of that out. I'm...I think I can do it. I have to do it, because no one else is. And if they are, they are lost, to me.

Maybe I can bring about more originality and creativity and break the goddamned mold that people have conformed to...

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