The Goth Challenge: Day 6

Technically it's day seven, but shh. I couldn't do this earlier...

Day 6: Hand write your favorite lyric and take a picture

Seeing as I have no camera, I'm going to take a Shitty Webcam Picture.

Yay for Shitty Webcam! :D

Can you read that? The lyrics are:

When I die
I'll die with my mercy
And when she cries
I'll cry with her
In my life,
See I've loved an angel
My mercy, eternal to me


There's more to it that I couldn't get in one pic...

We are love,
We are made of many
We are two,
We are made of few


The song is by Coal Chamber called My Mercy. It's...it's phenomenal. Definitely a song to sing between lovers. That's all I see when I hear it...and it's just beautiful to sing. Hear it.

Info on the challenge here.

Smart

I'm at school. It's the thirty minute break and I managed to find a site that allows me to play music: Last.fm! I love Last.fm. I discovered so many amazing bands thanks to it. So. What am I going to do during this time?

Because I've learned today that I'm not actually as far behind in my school work as I thought, I can devote some more time to what I should have been doing last week, but was too sick and lazy to do on my own. I can gather some of my written work to show to the literary club on Wednesday as well as pay more attention to some other work I doubt I can show (due to *ahem* content) but have been obsessing over all weekend. And have I mentioned Project DV before...?

I made a new Facebook group for it, and yeah, I see now that I probably shouldn't have gotten rid of the old group I had for it. But the fact that I can create documents might come in handy. I just hope I can still create discussion "forums". I really liked that...

I don't remember what I did over the weekend, but my desire to do more and somehow participate in the alternative communities sparked within me. I couldn't this past week, but I'm dead serious when I say I plan to do some videos. I've found some amazing users on YouTube that are very inspiring and fun to watch. I always look forward to seeing a new video from them. Overall, the alternative blog and video community seems to be doing pretty darn well.

Can't wait to join it~

Oh, also, I would be home or on my way home by now, but I'm staying a bit later because my teacher gave me an application for a job at Christmas Tree Shops. I'd love to work there. And since I'm new at this, she has offered to give me a fake interview and go over the application process with me~ Gotta do all I can to become independent!

Drastic measures

Sort of.

Guess what? I cut my hair (well, technically my mom gave me a buzz cut). All of it. It's allll gone. :D Why am I happy? Long story. Not in the mood to explain it. Now I really want to start getting some fake piercings. So the next time I get some money, I'm going to have to put half of it aside and put the rest into a savings bank or something. A stash somewhere...Has anyone bought fake piercings? I'm thinking of buying from Body Jewellery Shop from the UK or Body Jewelry Factory...from...uh...the US? Anyone bought from either or recommend a place?

Or...trial and error works, too, I guess...Ouch...

I'm somewhat in a good mood, even though I've been sick all week and couldn't go to school. I don't know what this is. Allergies? Or just a common cold? I even missed therapy...

Also I'm still trying to figure out how to merge or separate all of my accounts and whatnot. Of course, having permanent internet access would help, so I'm going to have to wait before I can really work on it. I have no idea when I'll be doing another video...and...might upload it somewhere else. Not sure. Maybe. Maybe not...*sigh*

World of Goo

Another interesting looking indie video game is called World of Goo. It's a physics-based puzzle game. I like it because it deals with...goo. Black goo, at that. It doesn't seem to have much of a story at first glance, but it does. Info taken from Wikipedia. :p

World of Goo | Source

The game is built around the idea of creating large structures using balls of goo. The game is divided into five chapters, each containing several levels. Each level has its own graphic and musical theme, giving it unique atmosphere, similar in style to Tim Burton's film designs (AHA!). There is also a bonus meta-game called World of Goo Corporation, where the objective is to build the highest tower using goo balls which the player collected through the course of the game.

The main objective of the game is to get a requisite number of goo balls to a pipe representing the exit. In order to do so, the player must use the goo balls to construct bridges, towers, and other structures to overcome gravity and various terrain difficulties such as chasms, hills, spikes, or cliffs. There are several types of goo balls in the game, each of which has unique properties. The player must exploit combinations of these goo balls in order to complete each level. Extra goos recovered in the pipe are pumped through to the World of Goo Corporation, a sandbox area where the objective is to compete with other players worldwide by building the tallest tower possible.

The story doesn't really matter to me, as this looks more like a game one would play for pure enjoyment and challenge. It has a somewhat nerving/startling environment at times, at least I think so, because you'll find yourself doing things like creating a "bridge" tongue from the mouth of a...giant...huge-eyed....vomiting-black-goo...frog and creating structures in an enclosed environment that has a spinning background. Dizzying. At times, the music really does remind me of something from Danny Elfman, which is a definite plus in my book.

Anyways, look up some videos and decide for yourself. As for me...I need some money!

Body modifications pt. 2

So. As I think I said recently, I have always a huge interest in body mods. Be it that I only have one simple earring in each ear and the closest to tattoos I ever had was using body gel pens on my arms when I was younger, I have none. Thing is, it isn't at all uncommon nowadays to find people, primarily youngsters, in my city and probably all over the USA with lip, eyebrow, and gauge piercings. That's great. It means it's becoming more acceptable to have them even if you aren't part of a subculture. Thing is, that also means getting a body mod now for me would mean it's almost like doing what everyone else is doing, even though I've always wanted them. Sure, my mom and brother know otherwise, but no one else would. My mother has told me, however, that doing so would seem so. And that's what really ticks me off.

Hey, it isn't my fault my mom would never let me have anything more than two earrings until now. Yeah, yeah, I'm nineteen. I'm getting them anyway, even though my mom said not to until after she dies. Yeeaaaah, like that's going to happen.

Annoying whining is over. Yes.

In other news, I've finally put a picture of myself up on my Blogger profile. It's from a failed video trial I did. It looks like a good quality picture because I made it smaller. I'm not hiding my mouth on purpose. There's nothing to hide.

The 31 Days of....

...something that was supposed to be special.

SERIOUSLY? The SyFy channel and Disney Channel are driving me nuts. No. I do not watch the fucking Disney Channel. But I saw a commercial for an episode of some show, I don't know, and what ticked me off about it was that one of the characters, male, dressed up as a GOTH for Halloween. Worst part was that he looked pretty good...and the announcer is going "Did he go too far???" and his parents are freaking out asking "Are you sure about this???" He seemed pretty serious. Yeah. Nice, Disney Channel. I have nothing to say....

In other news, I never mentioned I turned 19 on Sept. 28. Been trying to focus on my education more than I already have, but...things are just...weird, now. I don't know. My body isn't cooperating as much as it used to. I'm tired and worn out, overwhelmed...I don't know if it's my medication or what...or if it just because I burn more calories than I consume. I walk a lot, don't eat much...and I carry this ridiculously heavy bag every day...I don't know. I wouldn't know.

So. I have four days to do nothing or something. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. My mom and I will probably go out on Friday if I don't come back from therapy too late and...most likely not spend any money whatsoever because I am broke. Won't that be fun. And unless I get a new bus pass, well, I won't be going anywhere all weekend.

This should be fun.

Right, I remember what I was going to say, now. I have two new videos, but my mom said they're way too long. Uh, yeah...they were over nine minutes long...so I'll make a new one over the weekend just to introduce myself to the internet world. I'm also going to reupload my first outfit post on another account. I didn't want to at first, but...well, I'm not sure, honestly. My Lenighma account was just for music videos I hoped to make in the future, but...I'll see how it goes.

Must I remind you this is a rant blog?

Lonely

I don't know. I probably need to go to places on my own more. Maybe I need to just overcome my shyness and try to get another pen pal or something. Whatever the case, I'm lonely. It's true, I can be horribly shy. Always have been. God almighty, my mom can tell you stories. I'm getting better but not nearly as much as I'd like. Talking to complete strangers on the street also just...unnerves me somehow. I don't know this person. Why should I talk to them?? Why would they want to talk to me?? I just don't like strangers. Yes. I don't think most people like strangers. What the fuckery, right?

But, you see, I've been sheltered my whole life. There's so much that's new to me, amiss the fact that I'm nineteen. Up until I became seventeen, I couldn't even walk out of the house on my own. And the times I was given permission to do so, I was...afraid. So don't even go there.

I know this is a problem I have to get over myself, most likely. Complaining about it won't change anything. I know...

I only have two friends, one who I can't really communicate with and the other who I can't see as much as I'd like...

I know...

Just needed to vent a little bit.