Painting a true image of myself...

I guess I just like to record what's on my mind...

So. Let's talk how I'm going to go about my recent desire to uncover when, for the longest time, you'd think I was one of the last people on earth (within my community) to dream of doing so.

I have nothing against wearing a hijab. In fact, when I was a little younger, just a few years ago, I once felt the outside on my bare neck and head when my brother opened the door to outside...and I felt naked. So I'll admit I'm comfortable with wearing the headscarf (hijab), but I don't want to forever. Heck, I love wearing things on my head, just like I happen to love things over my eyes, like veils, glasses, goggles...But to actually wear a hijab all the time...

That is something I don't want to do anymore. I wish to dress the way I feel, and I can't do that otherwise. To me, you either will wear hijab, or won't. And I, currently, don't.

But for now, I will...For now...

There's this look I see myself having in the future, you see...Familiar with the great Anna Varney of Sopor Aeternus and the Ensemble of Shadows?

The decadent, gorgeous, supremely talented Anna Varney | Image from Google

Ah...I look up to her so very much. Even before I discovered her, I saw myself with that sort of look when I got older...but why save it for then? Why can't I start sooner? I love the shaven head look and always have (I cut all my hair off recently, in fact, now I have to find a way to keep it that way! It grows back too fast...). If I could somehow paint a picture of how I see myself in the future...*sigh*...

Here's my personal opinion: it's not about what you wear that makes you a Muslim, it's about what you believe in. Just because a woman doesn't cover the traditional ol' way, it doesn't make her any less of a believer in Islam, and the same thing with men. I'm much more interested in what's inside, though I'll admit I have certain perceptions on public, everyday decorum and certain things I just wouldn't be caught dead doing...

As for how I want to dress...no differently, really, at least for now (because who knows what I may want in the future).

Also! I can't give enough thanks to all of the good wishes and kind words and encouragement I've received from so many of my fellow bloggers and deviants! I'll try not to cry so much, guys. ;) And you may call me...Mae Quay! That's pronounced "key"! Mae...KEY!

A future post I plan on musing over is...how on earth am I going to pass as a man when I look too much like a woman, not even androgynous? This is seriously bothering me...