Well. Yesterday was...annoying. Somewhat. I did manage to go to the library and did make it to my therapy on time...but all she told me was that she believes I'm pushing myself too hard as well, just like everyone else. Maybe I am. But even when I feel I'm not I still don't get work done.
People all tell me the same thing, trying to be nice:
- I'm beautiful.
- I'm smart.
- I'm mature.
- I'll do "just fine".
And today...at the library again, but...I cannot believe how difficult it is for me to focus! I've been here for about an hour or so...but did I complete any school work? I did yesterday, but not today. After a while, I was sick of the distraction and just decided to get it over with and get on the comptuter.
...I'm not looking forward to going home. Home is just chaotic. Home is...uninspiring. Home is depressing. Home is not as homely as it should be. Not to menion the people I live with are...not listening to me.
I hate it when my posts are depressing, but what can I say. I'm going through that typical time in a young adult's life where this stuff is a daily occurance...*sigh*
I'd like to rant about something fun or inspiring...or something again...
you should. make up some random blog. but not depressing. ohhhh. i kno. okay--do one that is completely opposite and idk just experiment with the idea. your thoughts on a [very specific]topic~! say, people. or gender (!) or idk....something.
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